25-5-2008 - To induce or not to induce

My mood while writing this blog: Calm

Anyhoo, its 2:31 am which means I'm officially 4 days late. What surprises me is the amount of women who have asked me, "Why aren't you induced yet?" or "when are you going to get induced?" I didn't know that being 4 days late meant that I had to be induced!! On this website, I learned that most first pregnancy's go past the due date...so alas, I must be one of the women that rule applies too. I could see if I was going through a 4 day labor, or if my baby was under stress and my water levels were low, but I'm fine and the baby is fine and HEALTHY. Soooo, why should I have a doctor force my baby out when she obviously doesn't feel like it? Whats the harm in allowing her to sit in there a few more days? I'm 90% effaced and at my last visit, I was 3 cm dilated. Everything seems to be working right, its just that labor doesn't want to come for me yet! :(

My views on inducement so people will stop asking me why haven't I been induced like I'm some crazy masochist who enjoys abusing myself: I'm against it. I mean, I really feel that its completely unnecessary unless there is a medical reason for it to take place. I understand that by the time some women hit their due date, they're tired and they want their baby to be out by any means necessary. Or, their doctor tells them that they're going to have a 10 lb baby that won't pass through their pelvis. I respect that! I won't even front, when my due date came and passed, I was stretched out on my living room floor in TEARS!!! I WANT MY BABY IN MY ARMS!! However, I have to be patient. I believe that everything happens for a reason. I'm a woman before I'm anything else. My body is MADE for this. So I have to trust my body that it'll do the right thing. I do not feel comfortable going to the hospital and saying, "you know what, I'm tired of my baby being inside of me, can you please get her out? Thanks!" I'm not the one thats running this show! As soon as I saw that plus sign on the pregnancy test, I immediately had to play second fiddle to the HBIC. (head baby in charge...lol! Ok, that was lame, I knooow, I knooow, but its late and sleep deprived)

Now, after I hit week 41, and my doctor tells me, "well, your water levels are starting to decrease" or "the risk of something happening to your baby is high" THEN I'll just have to accept being induced because that would be a thorough medical reason to do so. I waited it out the best I could, and I would be proud of myself. But until then, I'm going to wait. Why? Because I can, thats why! lol! Eff having the cervadil insert inside of me, and the pitocin drip that causes the extreme contractions, and the horrible pain caused by the extreme contractions that makes the strongest women break down and get an epidural. Once again, if thats the route you chose to take, more power to you! But I'm not EFFING with an epidural, do you hear me? I can hear some women now, "Ok Kaprice, you say that now but wait until you get in that situation and your mind will change". Nope. Not a chance. The epidural scares the hell out of me. I hate having my blood taken, so the thought of having an epidural in my SPINE...*swoon* I won't go into details, but basically the human body gives off natural hormones during natural labor, and all of that extra medicine basically disturbs the whole flow of things...there isn't enough research to show the side effects of pitocin, which is basically a replacement drug for some other hormone called oxytocin or something like that...ok, I'm going into details, but look it up! To each its own. Women want to argue everyday about the pro's of getting an epidural and how wonderful it is. So, how is it that I can't be pro-natural? Just...let me do me and find everything out on my own. :) If I go through my natural childbirth and I tear from the bottom of my snatch to my *ss, and I faint 8 times from the immense pain and I lose a pint of blood and die on the table twice, just to be brought back to life by the pure grace of God, then the NEXT pregnancy, I'll know to request an epidural/inducement in my birth plan.

I'm still mobile...I can still move around well, and surprisingly my sanity has stuck by my side. So please, there's no need to say, "Oh my God, I'm sure you're DYING over there!" Honestly, I'm not. I have my episodes where I'm ready to curse out any and everybody, and I log onto this site and see everybody who is having their babies and it makes me cry because I have to look at an empty crib, but I'm ok! I've gone through 40 weeks and 4 days...will 3 more days hurt me?

Soooo...*sprinkling labor dust on myself* Kam is giving me the official "why-in-the-hell-did-I-just-roll-over-to-see-you-typing-on-the-laptop side-eye", so, I'm signing out!! DON'T CRY FOR ME ARGENTINA!!! *dramatic cunty faint*