| Kashli | |
![]() | Age: 21 Country: US Province/region: Colorado City: Colorado Springs Partner: Dolan Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: No Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: none as of now... : ) |
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| 20-6-2008 - Being Pregnant | My mood while writing this blog:emotional |
My Story...so far : )
Since i was about 11 i have had severe and i mean severe cramps. Cramps to where i would vomit and couldn't walk or even get out of bed to go to school. As i got older, they got worse - even when i wasn't on my period. They started to occur every day....i went to doctor after doctor and finally found out i had Endometriosis. I had surgery when i was 15 and it still never went away. I was put on a shot to help but that just depleted my calcium and made my bones weak. I was a jock and played Volleyball and basketball and broke 2 bones within 3 months of each other. I also was really underweight because the pain messed with my appetite. Last October i went to another doctor who wanted to do more surgery and told me i would probably never be able to have children. I was devastated. My mom talked me out of the surgery and i did accupuncture instead and tried to manage the pain more naturally. So my baby boy is my miracle baby : ) and i thank my mom for not letting me go thru another painful surgery that probably wouldn't have helped!
I found out i was pregnant on February 20th 2008. I had come home from work sick and vomitting because i thought i had the flu. I work at a nursing home and it was going around, so i figured that's what it was. That night my mom came home and told me to take a pregnancy test because i had also been complaining of sore breasts. I took it and it was positive! It was totally unexpected but i was happy and my family was ecstatic!
I told my boyfriend, Dolan, who was attending college about an hour away and he took the news well. We were both shocked but knew it was a wonderful blessing. After school, he moved back to his hometown which is 3 hours away from me and it has been so hard without him. We see each other, but i still feel so alone without him. Thankfully i have my mom, dad and 2 sisters to get me thru this : ) But it's hard when he can't feel our baby move or see my tummy growing.
He is working and trying to get everything situated and we will hopefully move in together by the end of july, hopefully sooner! We have been together for a year and a half, a whole year has been long distance. We have had very very hard times but also very very good ones : ) It's the hardest thing i've ever done and sometimes i wonder why i stuck with it but then i smile and remember the little guy growing inside my belly : ) I feel like Dolan is missing out on alot but i have to do what is best for me and my son and not worry about him so much. I know he loves me and is doing everything he can for us to finally be together in a physical sense, but sometimes it's hard. All i can do is stay positive and smiling and know that everything happens for a reason. : ) BUT i do love him with all of my heart for he is my heart and i thank God everyday that he blessed me with a wonderful partner and a beautiful son who i cannot wait to meet!
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