20-11-2009 - sad and Very Annoyed

My mood while writing this blog: whatever

It all started yesturday at work, i work as a waitress. My parents are out of town to Las Vegas. lucky them! grrr lol anyway so Eddie and i have to take over the duties and do what needs to be done. So just our luck the debt machines went down and we got slammed! huge line up outside, i usally see this during the weekend. We are very busy durning the week just not line up. We found out there was a huge fire on the 401 and it was shut done so ppl were using back roads and they were backed up. no matter where u went. anyway they went down i was on the phone with stupid bell for 2 hrs!!! and maybe talked to someone for 20mins out of that!!! i just wanted to pull my hair out. i had to give up my tables and section to take care of this. It never got fixed so we had to do visa mc old style way, just no debt. Eddie was pissy i was pissy we just went at each other all day! we were all stressed out, ppl were just making it a big deal when it wasn't! But when eddie gets a bit stressed he just takes it to far sometimes. |(rolls eyes) well we got home and took care of eric and he was still just soooooooo edgy like i was on a cliff ready to fall if i did or said something wrong. Eddie's never like this! and i understand he was stressed and worried caz my father usally takes care of most things. So i forgot to clean the bathroom the day before and he got pissed off and just went to bed at 8 pm! didn't even say nothing to me just kissed eric on the head and walked up. i got very upset and slepted in the spare room :( I didn't even talk to him today! didn't even wanna answer the phone. i picked Eric up and came home and saw 12 red roses and a card. Eddie just saying sorry and i love you and i didn't mean anything i said or did. forgive me love. Well i did but we had a long talk. all is good, i think it was good that we had a fight caz i mean it was going so good and it just felt like a tape going over and over again. know what i mean??? But we talked it out and we're trying to change things and hope it works out.

We're planning on going to the gym together and also joining a sport. We are planning more family time. We do have a lots of family time but i dont want the tv on or dvds going. i wanna just have us 3 and do fun things or even read books. We go to chucky cheese and the park and go out with friends. i just want a change! a huge change! i am just tried of this over and over thing.

Dont get us wrong, we love each other and eddie helps and does a lot and does take care of eric and does do whatever needs to be done and take care of us! just when he gets stressy or pissy he just overreacts. We all do, just got really annoyed about it.

U will up date tomorrow about Eric.

good night! kathy N Eric