28-7-2009 - Finally a good dream

My mood while writing this blog: Happy

Hey ladies, how are you all? I am doing pretty good really, despite the fact I am on CD2 with nasty back cramps.

Anywho, last night I had my first dream about pregnancy that resulted in a healthy baby, although the baby was born at about 28 weeks in my dream. You might be thinking 'So?', but to me this is a really good thing. Every dream I have had about pregnancy since I was pregnant over a year ago has been a dream resulting in my baby not making it. Mind you my dreams about pregnancy while I was pregnant (I only had 2 dreams) did result in live babies (or rather the dreams were actually about my child, not so much the pregnancy) - one of the dreams involved a boy who was very mentally handicapped, and the other dream involved a boy who seemed more evil than Damien in The Omen, and that boy was pretty evil. I had one dream (which I won't go into detail about, but if you want to know just ask me, it was very bizarre) before I was pregnant that first (and only, thus far) time, where I didn't end up with a successful pregnancy.

I don't usually read to much into dreams, but I think it may be my subconscious's way of telling me that maybe now I am finally ready to put my all into TTC, and when the time comes that I am pregnant again, things will turn out well. If you're someone who reads into dreams a lot and wouldn't mind helping me decipher the possible meaning behind my dream, I will gladly let you know the entire dream.

The one thing that stood out to me in my dream was that I was still with Michael in this dream, which makes me realise that the things in our relationship that are bothering me are really insignificant and can be worked through. I'm sorry this blog is jumping from one thing to the next and not making any sense, my mind is just wondering around. Any feedback about this would be great.

Hope all you lovely ladies are doing well, and I'm sorry I never comment you guys or your blogs, I just never know what to say, but I follow all of your journey's, and feel your emotions with you. =]