13-10-2008 - Last day of pregnancy!

My mood while writing this blog: Mixed feelings - all good

This is it! I am 39 weeks today and tomorrow, October 14th, we will go in to be induced. We had hoped we wouldn't have to be induced and that Isabella might have tried to come on her own over the last few days but unless she has a surprise for us tonight, we don't see that happening!

I am going to see my doctor this evening for one last exam so we will see what she has to say then! We had a cardiogram on Saturday morning and there wasn't one single contraction happening much to my disappointment. Lots of activity from the baby but no contractions. I had some very interesting aches and pains yesterday, but nothing consistent or steady. I am a little anxious about the inducing but I'm also very excited - I will finally get to meet my Isabella tomorrow at some point! We hope anyway!! Fingers crossed that all goes well with the induction and my body responds positively!!!

So, aside from being anxious and excited, I'm a little bit sad too because my 1st, but I hope not last, pregnancy is over. I have enjoyed this pregnancy tremendously - aside from the GD, 24 hour nausea at the beginning, some anemia - there were no major inconveniences or complications. I have loved looking at the pictures my husband has taken, watching how my body has changed monthly. I have loved the look on his face every time he saw the change in my body too - everytime he rubbed my belly or leaned down to kiss it or talk to the baby. He's been there every step of the way - never missed a dr's appointment - always been supportive and extremely helpful. But then again, that is the way he is regardless of being pregnant or not.

I loved knowing that every little twitch, flutter, movement inside my tummy was our little girl growing and that I was responsible for protecting her and nurturing her all these months. Even as I type now, I feel her movements, as slow as they are at this stage of pregnancy and I smile. But I feel sad knowing that tomorrow it all comes to an end. A very happy ending nonetheless and I can't wait to see her beautiful face and hold her. I'm just being a little selfish while I still can because I still have her all to myself!

I do hope that my husband and I are able to give her a brother or sister one day - sooner rather then later since I am already 38 and having Isabella now! And we did defeat all the doctor's opinions who told me I would never conceive naturally on my own. But time will tell! For now, I feel so blessed to even have Isabella and I just can't describe how much love I already have for her. Nor can my husband. The 2 greatest loves of my life and I are about to come together as a family. Finally.

Will update after my doctor's appointment if there is any news that is - if not, watch this space for Isabella's birth story!!

UPDATE: We will be checking into the hospital at 8:30am on Tuesday, October 14th to be induced!! So it's official - we finally get to meet our little Isabella at some point tomorrow!! Will be in touch when I can! Thank you for the well wishes so far!!!

xox