02-4-2009 - Postpartum && The Baby Blues:(

My mood while writing this blog: Happy but sad

Today has been a week since my little princess was born....man time seriously does fly it still seems like yesterday that we brought her home it's really sad seeing her grow so fast already:( Well I'm feeling great i didn't rip or have to have an episotomy during my labor sooo i'm feeling really great!!! Also since i had the epideral they gave me sooo many fluids i have been sooo super swollen for the past week but today it seems to truly be going down and i've already lost 15lbs!!! YAY only 12lbs to lose i'm sure it won't take me long....well i hope not at least. So over all i'm doing good and soo is my princess. Now getting used to the getting up during the night is REALLY HARD on me i have no clue why and during the day when Laila is sleeping i can't seem to go to sleep so i'm truly exhausted ugh....hopefully i get used to it soon. How long did it take yall to get used to it please let me know???

Okay soo i'm really having a bad case of the baby blues my fiance just went back to work yesterday and it seems like all i can do is cry i just feel sooo LONELY i have no clue why i'm sooo happy to have my beautiful baby girl but i feel empty inside for no reason i have plenty of support and help and love i just hate this and i truly can't explain WHY in the world i feel sooo sad in the BEST time of my life seriously ughh....can anyone else relate??? NO i'm not all thinking bad thoughts i'm guessing its just all this change at once....and all these hormones going through my body. I have no clue but i miss my fiance soo much it seriously hurts that he has to work i'm just hoping this gets better soon i just want to be able to enjoy this time you knw???

Well ladies i'm soo tired and wore out or i would write more i just hope i'm not the only one going through this???