16-7-2008 - TTC MAY and JUNE

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

5/2/2008~

Today is my sons first birthday and we are so excited for him. He is such an amazing little boy and we cant wait to make him a brother or sister soon. I am hoping that it is in the next couple of months because I would like to have another before he is two! Tested yesterday because I stink at waiting BFN!

5/5/2008~

Tested sunday 5/4 in the am BFN just to start AF later that afternoon moving on to month number 2.

5/13/2008~

Well just waiting for "o". I am going away this weekend with liam to see some family and when I come back it should be time to BD YAY! I am hoping going away for a couple days will make time go by faster.... Hope this month is our month but if not it is okay because it is only month two... still crossing my fingures hehe ! Our 4 year anniversary is May 15th maybe that will bring us luck!

5/22/2008~

Thought I would write since it has been a little while... There really isnt anything new to tell... last weekend was fun to go away for alittle while and when I came back it was time for BD the 18th 19th and 20th so hopefully the timing was right... now we are just in the tww and we will see what that brings... all of our weekends are packed with plans so I hope that will make the next 11 days go by faster!!! Congrats to those with BFP'S

5/30/2008~

Well getting ready to go to NY this weekend. Very Excited except for the fact that I think that a cold is comming on.. I am very stuffy and my stomach is a mess... I dont think that this is our month but I am going to still hold out hope just incase! It would be a great fathers day gift to tell the dh that he will be a daddy again .. but enough thinking of that I am not getting my hopes up at all .... and this month no testing early ...I did enough of that last month....Will update on Tuesday when af should arrive

6/3/2008~ So far no af..... knock on wood!!! No signs at all that she is comming either.. I am not trying to get my hopes up ..... guess we will have to wait and see

UPDATE!!! Well I didnt wait very long...tested at lunch and BFN.........still awaiting af though I have on and off scarp pains in chest??? maybe it was just to early.... I will continue to update as I figure out more !

6/4/2008~ STILL NO AF... and no signs once so ever of her comming ...... waiting till sunday to test!!!!! 4 more days!!!!...............Coworker just walked by with her lunch and usually she has yumming smelling foods..... almost lost my lunch ... hope this is a good sign for things to come!

6/5/2008~ CD 33 and still NO AF..... getting really excited but also sick of not knowing either way!!! I feel like I am the only one left in the ttc room that is not waiting for o to come this month and hasnt gotten my BFP either.. but Dh reminded me last night that I didnt get a positve hpt with liam till after 5 weeks! I had forgotten that detail...Fingures are Crossed that this is our month... it would be a great birthday present ... my 23rd birthday is Feb 3 2009 and my due date would be around Feb 8th YAY!! I guess we will just have to WAIT some more!! Thank you everyone for all of your supportive comments ...I am so glad that I finally made a profile.. I have been hanging around reading since I was preggo with my son...!!!

UPDATE BFN!!

Hopeful signs:

Sick to my stomach on and off

Sharp pain is bb's on and off, and also a wierd feeling like pins and needles

No Af

Very Tierd this also could be from not sleeping enough at night. Due to the fact liam still has troubles sleeping at night!!!!

Cried the other day because I could not get liams sheet on his bed! Crib sheets stink!!!

6/6/2008~ CD 34 and still no AF ..................if no af by the end of the weekend I will be 5 weeks and not even know it??!!!

6/10/2008~ No AF no BFP I am so confused... hubby says wait till next week to see if anything shows up .. If I am preggo I would be 5 weeks and 2 days..... I guess I will wait till Fathers day and test again... that will be the 6 week mark now on CD 38!!

6/12/2008~ Well still nothing CD 40!!! Oh my I have never had a cycle this long ever!!! Slighly ill when smell strong foods today and also peeing like crazy today... way more then normal..but no other signs as of yet! I am just hoping after I crest the 6 weeks mark that I will get my BFP! I am 90% sure that I am because this is so not normal for me but with on and off cramps like I have no idea what to think! Just waiting................. also very wet watery cm??? dont know if that is a good sign or not ?? Humm

06/13/2008` BFN!!!! CD 41 Have no idea what to donow! So disapointed!

6/16/2008~ Went to the doctors today and got yet another BFN... like I didnt know that another pee test was going to come out like that! So now they are finally going to do a blood test! Tomorrow on cd 45 at 1pm I will have a test and hope to get the answers soon to what is going on!!!

6/17/2008~ BLOOD TEST NEGITIVE! No Hope left in me................. I am totally crushed... I wish af just showed up on time .. I so would have rathered a straight no af is here then dragging in out this long and still no af in sight... I am no longer taking anything if it happens it happens is all..... I will update if af ever decides to show up!

6/18/2008~ Well I am turning over a new leaf! Yesterday I was so crushed to think that after being two weeks late and getting so excited that it was over. I held in all the tears while at work and let them out on my way to pick up liam. Then I got to the house and liam was on the front step waiting for me with a huge smile, swinging his little legs. I then realized I have nothing to be sad over at all. I am blessed enough to have a wonderful son and I need to live in the moment not in the future.. We are still ttc, but I promised DH that it is going to be different no more hpt's or scheduled BD.... we have time we are young and when it happens it will happen! Love you girls so much! I dont know where I would be without talking to you guys ....Have a great Wednesday!

6/20/2008~ WOW what a long crazy cycle that was!!!! 48 days long.. I have never had a cycle like that before.. maybe it was just still not regular from being off the pill!! Well here is to July!!! and hopefully a 30 day cycle!!