18-11-2009 - smiles & tears

My mood while writing this blog: pretty tired

its a little after 4:15am. the baby woke up a little bit ago. we changed our diaper & ate a little bit, had a good burp & now shes just sitting here in my lap "talking" & waving her hands around. shes such a happy baby.

most of the time she just sits & smiles while you talk to her. shes starting to make expressions toward emotion. tonight when we were just sitting around & daddy was talking, she would just watch him talk, then when he would make a "serious face" she would look at him with a concerned face as if to say "daddy, are you ok ?" then when he would smile and happily say "all better !" then she would start smiling back at him. they did that a few times. it was the cutest.

i still havent gone back to work yet. have been waiting for a daycare spot to open up in the baby room. but i am unsure how she will do in daycare. she will take a bottle (most of the time), but prefers breast. sometimes she wont take her bottle at all. if somebodys watching her so i can do other things, it can get hard for them. if shes having one of those times where she is just really not wanting her bottle, they have a very fussy baby on their hands. shes also starting to cling to me a little bit. if someone is holding her & shes having a time when she only wants me, she'll cry til i take her back then almost instantly the tears will stop. so if she doesnt want the bottle & im not there, she's in complete meltdown mode til i come back home & thats not good. especially if im gone for an hour or 2. she'll scream that long without giving in or passing out, so how would that work if i'm gone 6-8 hours ?! it evens happens to dear daddy. but when im holding her & daddys home, she will often times prefer to look at daddy, especially when he's talking. so i dont get it.

but shes growing. 9lbs 3 oz when we last went to the doc for her 2 month immunizations. 21 1/2 inches. she likes to be held up where she can look around & is practicing standing & will sometimes cry until she's held up where she can "stand". i told her that her that her brother & sister can walk & talk & that she should stay little because she's growing up too fast. but she just smiled real big.