24-6-2009 - One day at a time

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Oh my gosh. You take it a day at a time, and suddenly they're all flying past you. I lost track of time after Rach died, now suddenly I'm almost 24 weeks pregnant, and yesterday, her baby would have been due. She was on my mind all day, and my little one would not stop kicking, like he/she knew that I was a little down, and was trying to perk me up. The worst thing is that I just wanted it to stop, I didn't want to be reminded that I'm still pregnant, I wanted to pretend this isn't happening to me.

But hey, we all have our moments.

For the most part, it's life as normal. How can it not be. As much as you just want to be still, and not have to worry about everyday issues, Lucas still needs to eat, we still need to wear clean clothes, and as the weeks pass, you bury yourself in the normality of it all. When we catch up with friends (including her partner), something will remind us of her, and we will laugh knowing she would have laughed with us. It's so easy to talk about her, because she was so beautiful, and we all loved her, we all miss her.

I'm sorry, I promise my next blog will be a little more upbeat, I just needed somewhere to put this down.