24-6-2009 - I hate my current OBGYN

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

On my moms side of the family we have sets of twins everywhere. My Grandpa is a twin, my grandma has a cousin who is a twin and my grandma's sister had twins. Out of the 18 children my great grandma had 9 girl and 9 boys we are not sure if their was ever any other twins born or miscarried back in that time.

With my first child I never got to experience the beginning of pregnacy as most. I found out I was prego with him when I was over 4 months in. I was really hoping since I am half way into week 9 that I would be able to get a ultrasound to see and hear it for the first time. I think that it is important to have that freedom to be able to see the life inside you from the start. I feel it will give a real insight to the baby really being there and it will have alot of diffrent meaning to me than my first.

I called the nurse today since I do not get to even meet or see my doctor until mid July. I asked the nurse if it would be possible to have a ultrasound sooner than the anticipated 20 week mark that they have planned. I was told the only way I would be able to get one this early is if I started to bleed or pass clots, as well as if the doctor on my visit decided my uterus was bigger than normal size at that time of my pregnancy.

I am really pissed off that they are unwilling to let me have a ultrasound. I do not think it is fair that they told me they won't do it for me because they do not want to charge my insurance company for a non medical reason ultrasound. To me I should of already met my doctor and already should of had a ultrasound. I feel it is my right as not only the person paying for the insurance but the mother of a life inside my body that I get what i wan't. I am pretty upset about this and am highly thinking of switching to a different OBGYN. I don't think I would have any problem having my blood work and records transfered.

I may be over exagerating I don't know but I feel as if with these people I will not have the freedom to have things done I may wan't done and I do not like that feeling of having boundaries when it is my body and my child. I am going to sleep on it and maybe see if I change my mind but as of right now I really hate that I have not met my doctor yet and am being told they wont do things cause they are defending an insurance company who I pay to take care of me. FYI I have full coverage on everything I need medically and the hospital we will only pay $400.00. All of my xrays, blood tests etc are all covered by my insurance.

GRR I don't know what to do!!!!