07-2-2010 - I'm Leaving My Kids' Father..

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

~PLEASE NO BASHING~

Well I thought i would update you ladies and let you know that me and my boyfriend broke up last week. It is for the best we just can't get along for anything. I am tired of arguing with him constantly because he refuses to help me with the boys and cleaning around the house. He doesn't work so he is home with me all day long. I refuse to keep subjecting my boys to all the fighting and arguing any longer so tomorrow i am going out to look at low income housing and get applications for them places and i am also going to go and see about applying for section 8 housing as i have never had a job before in my life and also where i live nobody is hiring right now and i have filled so many applications out and they all come back saying the same thing we are looking for someone with work experience. So that is a bummer to keep hearing over and over. I have to do what is best for me and my children. I can no longer deal witrh being verbally abused in front of my boys and him threatening me and our children. He is just plain lazy. He refuses to help me with anything but he is so quick to jump up and help other people out when they need it. He is selfish and set in his own ways. So until i can get a job i am going to take and use all the resources i can to have money for me and my boys and food and shelter for them. To be honest ever since we had our oldest Elijah who is going to be 20 months this upcoming Saturday the 13th we have drifted apart. I always thought having kids usually brings people closer together but not in my case it has pulled us apart. Now don't get the wrong impression about what i just said i love my kids to death they mean the world to me and i don't regret having them one bit.I would rather be single and have my kids and raising them then being with there dad and having no kids at all. But i am going to go for now i will update again very soon i promise!