04-3-2010 - a few issues im a little worried about, need some advice

My mood while writing this blog: a little concerned

#1- So as most of you know, Brayden stays at home with Steven during the day since i work daytime and he works night times....well i feel like its almost UNHEALTHY for him in a way to be cooped up in the house 24/7!!! i know its been cold, and last summer he was outside but he doesnt remember that....so i try and get him out when its nice and he just goes and goes and GOES!! i guess i just feel like hes getting bored with his life being cooped up everyday (which i KNOW may sound rediculous since hes only a YEAR) but when i see how he acts when i take him to the park or just even in the back yard its like hes the happiest little guy ever! someone help me :( i know he probably doesnt know the difference but i just feel like hes BORED or something, does anyone else have this problem!?

#2- hes so young and is already SO snappy!! hes got an attitude already!!! i mean im sure thats normal because he IS the first child, grand child, nephew, everything so hes VERY spoiled, but is it normal for him to ALREADY kick and scream when he doesnt get his way??? and its almost like he cusses me out when i tell him no or turn him away from something i dont want him getting into! he tenses his arms at me and blabbers God knows what....lol is anyone else experiencing/has experienced this?? advice??

#3- so hes my first child, i KNOW we have spoiled him ROTTEN, and now for the future i know certain things to do differently....but whats done is done and now i need help!!!!! LOL right now he sleeps in our room while hes still in a crib, when hes ready for his toddler bed at like 18 months i think they say, he will have his own room, which brings up an issue....right now the ONLY way i can get him to go to sleep is my bottle, rocking, or passy....he will literally scream until he turns blue in the face and hold his breath and will not stop. i have had people tell me "oh he will quit give him 10 or 15 min" and ive tried, he just goes on and on....WHAT DO I DO!?! this has got to stop!! all my friends that have kids think im CRAZY because their all able to just lay their little ones down and they will go right to sleep!! i didnt know any better :( i just need to figure out a solution from someone who has experienced this and how they got through it!

please help me ladies i have done all i can do and im out of options, things have got to change and i feel like ive screwed up so bad!! :(