21-7-2009 - my baby's growin soooo fast!

My mood while writing this blog: chill

So, i know i've been away for awhile. I still check in on you ladies but just haven't had time for a blog. Jayde and I have been traveling and i've been trying to keep things clean, neat, and organized around my apt. IDK why, guess just trying to be an overall better person- better mom, sister, daughter, friend, housekeeper, etc. I feel myself growing everyday...closer to God and the positive people He's placed in my life. I truly have JOY, joy that no one can take away cuz GOD Himself gave it to me!

My little princess is growing up waaaay too fast! She can finally sit up by herself, which she loves. I'll put toys all around her and she'll sit up in the middle of the floor just playing for about 30 or 40 minutes. She also likes the exersaucer where she can stand up supported. I've also started rice cereal and yall, my baby is a lil fatty lol. She holds my hand and forces me to give her the spoon. She also cries if i'm not moving fast enough. Unfortunately, this hasn't cut down how much formula she takes...it's weird, she still wants 4-6 oz. every 4 hours. Oh well! I know she's healthy so i'm not worried. Her sleep habits even prove she's growing up. For the past week between 7:30 and 8pm i just lay her in her crib and she goes to sleep BY HERSELF! My nephew who's 19months still has issues with this so i am truly thankful that bedtime has gotten easier. She usually wakes up between 5 and 6am for a bottle. Sometimes she's ready to wake up then, but this morning she went back to sleep until 9am!!! Yay! I was sooo happy i got to sleep in. Only about a month left of summer and i have to return to work...speaking of, i gotta find childcare that I can afford.

Jayde stayed her 1st overnight away from me 2 weeks ago with my parents in Charlotte. It was VERY nice! I went out Friday night and stayed in the bed on Sat. until 7:30pm; i only got up to get food. :-) Then i got a chance to clean half of my apt. from top to bottom. My parents have been really good to me since they realize how much of this i'm doing with only the grace of God to help. And, actually, tonight Jayde is staying overnight with her other grandma (Rol's mom). I've been praying for him and his fam to have a change of heart and be involved in Jayde's life so we'll see...i'm not getting my hopes up and i'm just trying to do the right thing. I know i know, i said i was glad they were leaving us alone, but best case for Jayde is to have them in her life. We've talked a little about the whole incident that happened at the end of June and i don't think Rol is a threat to either me or Jayde...i just think both of us need to do a lot of 'alone' time to deal with things before trying to be anything other than good parents to Jayde. I will def be calling every 3 hours to check on my princess, though. Do trust, i'll be updating yall on this overnight visit.

Sooooo all of this growing and changing Jayde has been doing (and me looking at all of you all go thru pregnancy and birth) makes me want another baby. I seriously have been thinking that i wanna do this all over again soooon! I know that's crazy cuz i haven't had a man since Jayde and don't know if there are any prospects in view. Actually, i have been talking to a wonderful guy for almost two months now, but gotta wait a lil longer before the final verdict is in on him...i'll let yall know ;-) Anyways, i wanna do things the "proper" way next time...married first, so i know i have awhile before the next pregnancy but i want another baby like NOW! LOL

Well, hope everyone is doing just fine! Remember, "What don't kill ya will only make you stronger!" and "God will never put more on us than we can bear." Let's keep doing what we do as the wonderful mothers that we are! :-)