01-3-2010 - WTF????

My mood while writing this blog: CRANKY

So, as predicted, things have started to fall apart. First my glucose tolerance test came back positive with a level of 159 which as I'm sure you all know means I have to go for my 3 hour. Keep in mind, this happened with both of my other kiddos and the 3 hour came out fine. I'm a little girl and to starve me for 14 hours then vampire the blood out of me for half of a day doesn't suit me. If I don't weigh enough to donate blood, is it a good idea to make me pass out and almost puke all over myself? GAAAAAAH!!

To make matters worse, I've been having contractions for months but nothing earth shattering... until this past Friday. I'm at work and they are 3 minutes apart. Now my stubborn ass waits until my normal quitting time, call my doc and per his direction go to the ER.

I'm not quite sure what I was expecting but it was the worst experience EVER. The resident came in, farted, yes that's right busted stinky ass as she was talking to me. This must've been a warning sign as I've never been in more pain from a pelvic than I was when Dr. Hammerhands was up in there... Then this biatch had the audacity to YELL at me to 'relax' that I was in pain because I was clenching... Um, this is baby # 3, I'm not new to this nor am I an idiot because I didn't go to med school but thanks you turd... I wasn't clenching but I'll take that as a compliment and pass that on to the hubby...

So here is the scary part, I am 27 weeks and already 50% effaced and 1 cm dialated with a strong history of preterm labor, my first son being born at 30 weeks and after bedrest my second coming at 37 weeks. The difference is I am working full time this go around and I'm the breadwinner and can't affort to take a leave... I'm supposed to be on bedrest but I can't!!!! I have a mortgage and 2 little boys who depend on me for food and warmth... HELP!!!!!!!!! FML does't pay and short term won't even cover my maternity leave fully and I have 12 weeks + to go so WTF do I do??????