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| 10-7-2008 - SO TIRED |
My mood while writing this blog: TIRED AND HOT |
hey ladies...........well so far so good we have benn home for 2 weeks, the shunt seems to be working, no more water head :) he is now smiling and laughing. he holds his head up and pushes up kinda. kwam is still not sleeping for more that 4hrs sometimes on a rare ocassion i get 5hrs out of him but it seems to be more durring the day. balancing 2 kids and a hubby is really hard to me. some of u may do it very well but i find the transition hard. maybe because i was 5yrs younger when i had jaden and i was single. i did not have to really cook or clean as much as i do now. i still have not gone back to work and honestly it terrifies me to think about it but i have to for the money and the freedom and especially the SANITY! while i was busy dealing with my sick little baby i kinda had to put jaden on the back burner. i feel bad about it but i would have done the same for him if he was sick. now i am deaing witht he stress that jaden went thru during the last 4 mo...he want to be sick?!?!?!? i had to take him to the er the other night cuz i thought that he had appendicitis....thank GOD he was ok just backed up with poop (tmi i know) i feel like a terrible mother because i just cant seem to balance shit. i am gaining weight kinda fast and i dont like that. after having kwam i was like 15lbs less than when i got pregnant. now i am back to the pre-preg weight :( i need to go to the gym but i just dont have time. big kwame helps but i dont fell that the work with the baby or the house work is 50/50. well i have to go now i have to finish packing up my kitchen we are getting fumagated in the am and i have to basically pack up the house like we are moving!!! where is hubby u ask???? IDK out with friends at the bar :( i wish that i could go out as often as he does...actually i dont i was never a go out person i just want a break maybe go out to the mall or the book store ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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