14-5-2009 - Week 4

My mood while writing this blog: Bloggy

Ok, well this time I'm going to take belly photos and blog, I didn't blog last time..

This is my belly picture. It is 4 weeks pregnant and also 4months 3weeks postpartum.. It is definately bloated because though I have lost 2 more lbs my tummy is pooched out more these days. My first pregnancy in Jan08 I weighed 150lbs, I lost that pregnancy in March and when I went in April for my pregnancy with Maddox I weighed 161lbs, I gained 38lbs so I got to 199lbs when I gave birth and now I weigh 148lbs. I'm pretty darn proud of that.

I have started to actually feel pregnant so maybe my incessent POAS will slow down. I still want to go get a digital test just to see the words pregnant but I'm getting my blood drawn tomorrow so I will hear the words and hopefully my HCG levels, though I don't have anything to go off since it will be my first time, hearing that they are a typical number for 4-5 weeks pregnant will be alright, plus I've had a progressive darkening of the 5 pregnancy tests I've been taking..

I've been trying to talk about it as much as I can given that we aren't broadcasting until my husband can come home and tell his family in person instead of word of mouth through the internet (I'm 99.9% sure none of them know about this page, if they do then we're screwed)... but no matter how much I've talked about it I have to re-tell myself every morning that I'm pregnant and it wasn't a dream.. I leave the pregnancy tests on the counter so I see them everytime I go to the bathroom, which is a lot more frequent these days, positive sign... I have lots of pregnancy symptoms that I can't wait for a few of them to go away, like the extreme bitchyness, my husband is away busting his ass for us and I only get to talk to him for maybe an hour or two a day, I don't see him, yet I'm still mean to him, then I feel like shit for being mean and cry because I didn't mean it.. He's already stressed from his situation and I'm yelling at him, I'm the only person he talks to... so I've vowed to chill out if it kills me, I can't keep doing that to him or I'll be lucky to have 2 kids, no sane man would go through this more than twice! so.I am not going to yell at him when we talk today AND I'm going to clean the house cause the chaos thats going on on the table is seriously affecting my mood.

Anyways thats enough of this... Going to go put my lil grumpy rolly polly down for a nap...

Baby Dust to all TTC&2ww'ers, StickyDust for the girlies in the early stages of pregnancy!

~Abby & our new lil goober..