08-4-2008 - April 8th, 2008

My mood while writing this blog: Weird

I had my appointment with Dr. D today. It went well I suppose. I talked to him about some weird feelings Ive been having and he said that things are looking good. And I should try and relax (easier said than done). I just cant help but feel like something is wrong. I feel like I am missing something, or Dr. D is missing something. I just cannot shake the feeling. Ive even been having dreams (more nightmares) about something being wrong. And not finding out until its too late. Ugh.... *sighs*... Im losing my mind. Ive never had this with either boys. Its too weird. But Im trying to relax... Trying being the key word there. My blood pressure wasnt horrible today so I dont have to go back for two weeks. And we are scheduling for an ultrasound test at 12weeks, and they'll do blood at the same time too. I guess its a new way to test for down syndrome and spinal problems, and it has a lower rate of false positives than the triple screen. Im not very nervous about that, Matt and I are at low risk for that type of problem, so its more for peace of mind than anything.

On another note, Ive been watching this show on the WE network all day, Twister Sisters. Its terrifying, and I can say with complete confidence, that I have found and new greatest fear... Tornados. *shutters* Yea. If you ever catch this program on TV I would recommend watching it, its pretty spooky.

Well... Im off to "try and relax". Wish me luck.