06-7-2009 - Devistating News

My mood while writing this blog: strange

Friday May 29th 10 weeks We went in for a check up and they couldnt find a heartbeat, they did an ultrasound friday afternoon and still no heartbeat and the baby had stopped growing they think about 5 days before. My HCG levels had dropped from 130 thousand to 32 thousand in 9 days. I had no signs or symptoms of a M/C they call this a missed missacarrage.They sent us home for the weekend and I had to go back in Monday to be enduced by taking pills to start the delivery/miscarrage. The pills can take up to 3 days to work so they gave me a bottle of them and sent me home. I started having contractions on Monday evening and my water broke around 9pm by 3 am I felt like I was in full larbour...I think it was worse then when I had my daughter. We lost the baby that night, althought the babies heart had not been beating for about a week. It was awful the most horrible emotional thing that has ever happened to me....I wish no person would ever have to go through something like this. I took a week off work and am back here now. I had to continue to take the pills to make me contract for the full week because another ultrasound 2 on that Wed showed that there was still alot of blood and clots in the uterus to come out that wasnt coming out on its own. I go back to see my Doctor tomorrow for another ultrasound...I think it is all over now. We want to know when we can try again, thats really the only big question we have right now, I think it will help me move on when we can get pregnant again.