03-10-2008 - Bedrest for Me

My mood while writing this blog: Stressed

Ok, so where do I start? I feel so stressed out right now. Tuesday at work I started to have severe cramping and "contractions" so I called my Dr. They had me come in right away. He did a pap to see if there was any infection that could be causing me to cramp. That came back negative. He told me I needed to go to the hospital. Once I got there they hooked me up to an IV to make sure I wasn't dehydrated. They gave me a pill to stop contractions, hooked me up to monitors and gave me 2 steriod shots just incase she decided to come out early her lungs would be a little more developed. After 8 long hours at the hospital my Dr. came to see me after his office closed. Since the contractions had subsided he told me I could go home but had to be on strict bedrest for 3 days then if I am feeling better I can go back to work. Once I feel any sort of cramping or tightening he told me I need to rest right away. Today was the first day that I actually moved a bit more. I have to take Nifedipine daily to help with contractions.

I am a very hard person to stay rested. I am constantly doing stuff and I hate asking other people for help. This really has me stressed out because I don't want to be missing much work. I don't want to keep asking people for help. I also have a 4 year old that needs me. All this just seems to stressing to me. I know I need to do what is right for the baby. I just pray everything will turn out ok. Being inside for just 2 straight days have drove me crazy. I'm not sure how women do this for months.

I have a husband who on some days seems to help out really well but since I been on this bedrest thing I feel like I am constantly asking him for help and I shouldn't have to. This to is putting me over the edge. I feel like I shouldn't have to ask, he should just do it. Maybe its just a man thing I don't know. While being at home I watched the Oprah show and they were talking about women and how a lot of us feel like we have to be "super moms" and we all have this image of what the "perfect mother" is. I to feel like I need to be super woman. This isn't always a good thing becuase I get myself so caught up in things that I think that I should be doing and really they are things that can wait or should be put on the back burner.

I am doing a lot of rembling I feel like I have so much to say and things to get off my chest. I feel so much pressure right now and all I feel like doing is crying. I hope this all passes soon. I know my lil girl and I will be ok if I just can learn to slllllooooooowwww down and stop stressing over things. I go back to the Dr. on Monday 10/06/08 so I will see what else he has to say then.

I hope all of you are doing well!!! You are my home away from home. I don't know all of you personally but we are all women and tend to have the same feelings and emotions. It's nice not to be alone! LOVES XXX