23-7-2008 - It's not my time....

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

So for the past couple of weeks, I felt like I wasn't myself and I guess this song def. explains it all!

I guess you can call me a paranoid person. I constantly think of the worst of things. Such as this crazy world we are living in. I think about what if I die, who are to care for my kids or how would my husband deal with it. I guess dying is my worst fear!!

It's not my time (3 doors down)

Looking back at the beginning of this
And how life was
Just you and me and love and all of our friends
Living life like an ocean
Now the current's slowly pulling me down
It's getting harder to breathe
It won't be too long and I'll be going under
Can you save me from this

('Cause) It's not my time,
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, I won't go

I look ahead to all the plans that we made
And the dreams that we had
I'm in a world that tries to take them away
Oh, but I'm taking them back
All this time I've just been too blind to understand
What should matter to me
My friend, this life we live
Is not what we have, it's what we believe

(And) It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
But, it's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
Now I know that
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, I won't go
I won't go

(solo)

There might be more than you believe
(There might be more than you believe)
There might be more than you can see
But, it's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
But, it's not my time
I'm not going
There's a will in me
Now it's gonna show
This could be the end of me
And everything I know, oh
There might be more than you believe
(There might be more than you believe)
There might be more than you can see
And I won't go
No I won't go down (yeahh)