08-8-2009 - LEAKY GUT! I don\'t know anymore...

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

As many of you know my son has autism. Well kids with autism are known to have 'leaky guts' which doctors don't believe and just prescribe an antibiotic to kill the infection.. not the yeast. I am half tempted to bring my son's diaper into his pediatricians office and make it go all over the place like it does at my house.. there is no explanation for this. His pediatrician thought I was crazy when I walked into the office with kyle earlier in the week and said DO something.. Believe me when I say this is autism related! instead I got a script to get a stool sample done which I have to do yet, but fear that I will be forced to give my son an antibiotic. He is not sick! He doesn't need this crap!

I feel alone in this mess.. what mess? The mess of the autism world and blind doctors who don't want to listen to parents who experience all this. I breakdown often and just cry.. I am fighting for my son and then when I tell his pediatrician something.. they find every other excuse to say it's chronic diaherria.. if this was the case he would have this since birth.. umm may i inform you that this never occured till he got his damn MMR vaccine! My son was normal, he was TALKING.. he did everything So early and you want to tell me it's not vaccine related! Give me a break.. I saw my son change overnight, he became a different child.. I am sick of people telling me there is no link... I DON"T NEED A LINK (MEDICALLY!) TO KNOW WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY SON.. He is the proof that this crap happens MORE than we imagine! Before my son was diagnosed.. I never thought there was a link either... needless to say I think differently. I am lost for words and as you can tell pretty pissed! I am sick of doctors telling me what is MEDICALLY wrong with my son... What ever happened to listening to parents who know their kids best?

Ok back on subject.. this leaky gut thing.. is gross! My son has diaherria like poop everyday 4-5x's a day where it's runnign out of his diaper and all over the carpet so I scrub it constantly! There is nothing medically wrong with my son... but rather his gut is loaded with toxins and bad yeast. Today he is not himself and it hurts as a mother to watch your child one day be happy and smiling for once and the next be mean and constantly hit, punch and kick me. As his mother this breaks my heart. EVERYTHING my daughter does now.. MY SON DID! (one reason why i rejected my daughter's MMR vaccine)

I don't need to hear ppl say you can't change the past, at least your son is here and healthy and not dead.. Give me a break! He is dead inside half the time just staring at the wall.. lifeless. I cannot go to the zoo, park , mall, stores, or outside with him. Its too much for him. I feel like I am holding him back and one lady at work says you can't do that to him. Well do you want to live my life? Its hard.. my life is changed forever.. we cannot eat as a family out, go to family functions, NOTHIng. and his pedicatrician doesn't know much about autism.. this week I am going to make an attempt to print out lots of info and talk to his pediatrician one on one.. give him my piece of mind because they need to know what many parent's aren't speaking up about.. what many parent's are afraid of saying... Well guess what.. I am no longer afraid.. My son will be another recovered autistic child weather you believe in that or not. it's expensive but goign to be worth it.

BTW my son is now goign to start having 30 hrs a week of ABA (applied behaviroal analysis) with his therapist.. this should be starting sometiem this week. That's 6 hrs a day...

~Carol