10-10-2009 - Our trip to the Children\'s Museum (HORRIBLE DAY!!!)

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

My idea of maybe getting out for once, was a bad idea!

Our day started, I got up and cleaned my house, got the kids up and got them dressed. I explained that we were heading for a little ride (1 hr 45 min drive) to the Children's Museum.. of course mykids being little, didn't understand what I was saying. 30 mins from teh Museum Kyle went poop but told my hubby to wait it out till we got there... well needless to say we had to run to the closest mall to get him a whole NEW outfit. There was shit up his back, down his legs, all over his carseat... Leaky Gut issue AGAIN! I think it was the soy pudding I have been feeding him, another thing I might have to cut out! I am very pissed because I KNOW FOR A FACT that if I knew what I knew now back then... I would have denied the MMR vaccine. Say what you want.. go right ahead... that vaccines dont cause this.. but what do you have to say about this leaky gut issue? My son was able to drink anything, eat anything up until 15 months old. I remember right after the vaccine that he started to puke a lot, puke a lot mostly after drinking milk and then by 18 months not able to tolerate milk AT ALL, nothing with one hint of milk in it!

Anyways, we went into the museum with kyle pantless, hoping they sold pants, only for the lady to tell me that they only sell shirts. So into the car we go, I typed in our GPS and they found a mall 6 miles away so I bought him a new outfit. Well when we arrived back to the museum and I took Kyle out of the car, he didn't want in the stroller, he arched his back and screamed bloody murder. well I forced him in there until we were able to pay.. 10 mins after getting in there I let him run free.. well after that I just wanted to scream and cry.. everyone was looking at me (which I could care less about) but they didn't understand why my son was crying, Many parents said "oh poor boy is tired" I wanted to say "no this is autism and be glad ur child is able to enjoy these trips" I was very angry! and pissed... NOT at kyle but just from everything that has occured from the MMR vaccine. We are UNABLE TO do anything now! He is getting better at home, but worse out of the house.. and I dont know what to do anymore!! It's frustrating.. and the autism rate is just getting higher and higher by the day and it's fucked up! Really fucked up! sorry for my language but when will doctor's realize this? i mean come on money is important but not that important if it's affecting our future generation. I don't think parent's will realize the link until their OWN CHILD is affected.....

I was planning a trip next summer to a beach or something but I refuse to put myself in this situation again, I am not spening hundreds of dollars to not enjoy myself and listen to my son just scream the whole trip.

People say things will get better, kyle will learn to deal with things... but it's hard to believe that when this is YOUR CHILD and you are there in that situation. I love my son to death.. I just hate what has been taken away from this family.... (family functions, family trips, swimming , trips to the library, family pictures...) the simpliest things you do as a family like to the park or to your backyard.. we cannot do!

Well that's all!