21-12-2009 - If it wasn\'t for him.

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

If it wasn't for him...

If all this therapy wasn't for my son, I would shut it all out and stay to myself. My son has 20-25 hours of therapy a week (going through the grivence process now) starting after the new year, ( has 14 hrs now) and to be honest, I don't know if I'm okay with it. I mean it's for my son so it's important... but it seems like i have no down time. All morning someone is here monday thru friday. Don't get me wrong, My son is greatly improving, due to all this therapy, however it DOES affects you. I was like great! my son has therapy.. I was so excited, until tonight. I never get to sleep in with my kids, It's like I get up early to just clean and make my house look half decent for others. And I'm sick of it. I'm sick of getting up early enough to just take a bath, when I could be sleeping in bed and just realx. As you can tell I'm quite upset now. My son means the world to me and this thearpy is great, but just wish there could be a day where I can just wake up not tired, wake up to my kids, not the alarm clock...
I know one day he won't need all this therapy. So I just take it one day at a time but that's hard when I just look forward to the same routine the next day. It's getting old!

and many of you are prob like, give me a break... your a mother now.. there are no sleeping in and no breaks.. well until you are in my shoes.. you won't ever understand.