26-12-2009 - Wish things weren\'t this way!

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Wish things weren't this way!!

I wish there was one day with NO screaming! I have small kids yes, but the constant crying for no reason, sitting on the couch, watching Thomas and Friends, is getting on my last nerve. I know I sound like a really horrible person... but people need to know what we go through, with a child like Kyle. And today I have sat down and cried because I CANNOT help my child like everyone else is. I don't have money out the ass to 'recover' my child. These pediatricians don't know shit about yeast and how that really affects kids like mine. They don't know about the poison's in these vaccines that caused my son's autism. They either know and don't give a shit because it's their BREAD AND BUTTER, or they are bluntly brainwashed! And if you're a pediatrician right now reading this I would gladly say "suck it!" I am DONE! I'm done going to well baby check ups for no reason.. for a weight and height. I don't Vaccinate so if I did that would be the reason for the visit. Sorry for my rant, but I am just frustrated with not being to just up and go, go shopping or the mall with both kids fearing a meltdown. All kids have tantrums, meltdowns or whatever you want to call it. But only with parent's who have an autistic child will understand what I mean.

I just wish the financial part wasn't an issue. I wish insurance companies would cover this, the government and doctors must sleep in the same bed. They rather have my child, and other children out there become mentally challenged because this is what it ends up being with NO treatment involved. My son has a tss (aba therapy), speech, OT and early intervention, made great progress, but there are days like today where I have great doubt. I don't know why. I want to believe that my child will be recover, be able to speak again (he talks a little now) and potty trained.. but it's hard. All day he has been screaming about EVERY little thing. His train fell apart, he had a big meltdown, his drink dripped on the floor, another meltdown, Thomas & Friends on TV went back to the beginning menu to push play , He had A BIG meltdown!! I know we make sacrifices when we have kids or plan them... but I just wish

Wish there was something MORE I could do!

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