08-1-2010 - Venting a bit...

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

I have been very weary of vaccines... as you can tell from my other posts within
the past.. well two weeks.

I posted a question regarding vaccines.. on a different website, got many responses that made me kind of 'rethink.'

I am lost. I SAW with my own eyes how the MMR vaccine changed my son... but many
people have insulted me time after time saying that there are shown studies that
vaccines have no role in autism. Then why did my son show no signs of autism
(such as saying 20 words by 15 months, walking at 9m, crawing at 5m and sitting
up at 3m?) These milestones ARE NOT in a child with autism! They also say that
doctors tell these parents that vaccines are not the cause.. blah blah.. but I
think these parents (me inc.) are brainwashed into thinking vaccines really do
the body good.. ahem.. the toxins involved. Besides mercury, there is aluminim
and acetone (nail polish remover) in vaccines.. along with a lot of other
ingredents. I have done my extensive research and very disappointed in the
medical community. Well disappointed isn't the word. I feel very taken advantage
of, for these doctor's money... they tell me what I want to hear and jab my
kids. For their bread and butter. And when my damn child is affected... they
slap me in the face with research. YOU KNOW WHAT shove those research papers
somewhere else!! WHERE IS the research from parent's like me?? Who SAY YES there
was that change? Where is THAT research? Shoved in the back of the files AS much
as possible... SO that other's dont know about the real known facts that I swear
better be released!
Where is the study showing that there was a decline in a lot of milestones, such
as talking or walking, after the vaccines (other kids may have been affected by
other vaccines not just the MMR). Where are the studies showing that my son's
GUT was damaged due to the MMR. It's not celiac! My son has Gained exactly ZERO
pounds since the MMR vaccines. Back then, he was in the 95-80 percentile for his
weight. Now off the chart! ("failure to thrive")
Thanks for listening! I just am sooooo frustrated. Like I don't know anymore ...
I don't know who to believe! Well I believe my son of course.. the one who is truly affected and trying to make others aware of vaccines... but then there are people out there who will DO ANYTHING for their money which inc. doing "positive" research on vaccines... WHERE ARE ALL THE NEG. VACCINE RESEARCH REPORTS!! Hidden of course.

You know... what? Doctors support parents who Do vaccinate which I respect, it's your child. But where is my support? I am shut off and kicked right out the door for putting vaccines on hold. Quite obvious why. I aint no dummy. Where is my respect as a non vaxer? (Or at least put-on-hold vaxer?) I am very disappointed that my point of view does not count in these vaccine reports. My son's condition is serious! And we are left out in the dark.. child after child after child is affected and NOTHING is being done. I get no respect for going the BIOmedical route. His pediatrician thinks I am wasting money on some hoax.. but let me get my child in your office in a couple of years.. I guarentee he will have lost his diagnosis!

Costs of DAN! doctor stuff:

$475 for the first visit; $190 thereafter

$400 on supplements/month (give or take)

$100 on gas

Cost of my son's future: PRICELESS!

And I don't get any of this money back from the ins. So instead next year getting a heafy tax return.. thanks tax payers! =]