16-1-2010 - Before you judge me as an ANTI vaccinating mother....

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Before you judge me as an "ANTI" vaccinating mother....

Don't say I didn't warn you about being tempted to hit the "leave a comment" button to leave something harsh or something to make me feel like an unworthy/horrible mother.

Lets start back to the day my son was born. Oh I remember the long hours in labor.. well induced labor to be exact. With NO epidural or any other medications but the antibiotic that was given for the damn GBS I tested positive for. You know that dreaded painless anal swab test..
Well by 10:30 pm I was bound to release the 8lbs. 4oz baby boy I have been baking inside me for 9 months!.. I was told to wait.. and wait.. and lets just say I had to hold my son in for an hour before he was really born! at 11:30pm my son was born. Medication free... should I bold that even more??
Anyhow my bragging is done!

My son,Kyle, had all the vaccines according to the pediatrician's schedule.
So exact number is 27 vaccines by 1.5 years old. YES 27!
Then things changed...
Before you decide to just scroll down and hit "comment"...Think again..
Put yourself in my shoes.. Just for this post.

My son spoke 15-20 words...
Looked at me in the eye,
Listened to me,
and ate anything possible that included "casein and gluten." I didn't really associate that maybe the MMR had something to do with my son's autism until May of 2009, A month before he was actually diagnosed. So for all those people who say "autism" IS overdiagnosed and that my son is just going through stages... suck it! I repeat: SUCK IT!

Now where was I?....
Oh okay.
After the MMR vaccine my son lost his speech. There was no vaccines from 15 months to 18 months old. No vaccines in between so nothing else could have contribued to this. After the speech.. went his gut. LITERALLY! After each meal, he would just puke. I didn't understand this. This was starting three weeks after the MMR. I thought well maybe my son is sick... maybe he has a virus. It went on for months. Then all of a sudden his bowels were just pure water. I mean PURE SHIT WATER! Come on this does not just happen! That went on for exactly 9 months... before I started him on the diet. What's the "diet?" GFCF. Google it.
After the diet, the BM became less stinkier and more solid. With at least a leaky gut moment twice a week. His speech came back a little. His eye contact was back. But I could remember them summer days at family functions, where he would just run. Not run like a hyper toddler. But run from the family members. Screaming. And when I got him to get him back to the party... He grabbed my neck and squeezed it.. twisting it, and scratching it. I remember going into work with bruises and scratches. Not a fun moment to remember.

Lets fast forward ..... seven months.

My son has improved thanks to the diet, but his diagnoses remains the same. I honestly from my heart do believe that the MMR vaccine contributed to my son's autism but not CAUSED IT. I have put all vaccines on hold at the moment. Not even sure where to start again, without wondering if my daughter will end up like my son. It was a heartwrenching day when he got diagnosed seven months ago. I was hoping they would say it's a "stage" like most damn parent's think it is.. Autism is NOTHING To them if their child isn't diagnosed as having autism. AUTISM to them to a bad misbehaving child who gets their way. AUTISM is the fucking parent's fault... Yeah you really think I MADE my son this way? You think I didn't parent him enough or discipline him enough? I would DO ANYTHING in the world to have my child back.. the one who spoke to me.. but I can't. I have to work hard with him.

So before you rule me as an "anti" vaccinating parent... think again. Think how I got this way. Vaccines have pros to them... as well as cons. More CONS in my opinion. My son is the proof that I will ever need to know that the vaccines have contributed to how he is today. And we are the ones who suffer.

I would like to add that if you are a parent of an autistic child who saw the exact changes... you know what I am talking about. And if you aren't a parent of an autistic child then you DO NOT have room to talk... you do not have the right to say that vaccines do not cause this. Just because your child was not affected by any vaccine out there.... does not make my child any less important than yours in this decision. Every child is on a different level that can handle toxins. My son was unable to handle all the toxins that are presented in vaccines today... so as a result he is autistic. I am fighting for his rights and the rights of other children that are affected. Dr. Wakefield did a study on 12 children. He made a connection between bowel disease and the MMR when the mercury preservative was present in vaccines. Dr's have said that what he stated was invalid... only invalid to make them look good. To make Wakefield look like the bad guy. Well sorry to say people but I believe what he had to say. I believe that the MMR contributed to my son's gut damage and autism. They are trying to stop people from knowing the truth... which will come out eventually!...

So I am leaving it at that....
Love me or hate me!
Thanks for reading!

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