01-6-2008 - June 1, 08

My mood while writing this blog: sad and tired

It is a truly yucky day outside, it perfectly matches how I feel. The only time I don't feel nasea is when i am eating or drinking. But if I eat too much then again... I feel nausea.

Truly what seems to be difficult (one of the many things) is that I want to yell at everyone who says the "wrong" thing to me. Wrong in my mind I guess. Like yesterday I was waiting for my fiancee to get his hair cut and I went into the grocery store. I picked up a strawberry daiquiri mix for virgin drinks later on and oreo cakesters. While paying for it, the lady behind me said "what are you having a daiquiri cookie party... ha ha ha..." I just looked at her and said nothing while really wanting to give her a good kick. What is it their business what I am buying and why would they comment on it anyways... gosh! Drives me crazy! Feeling extra sensitive I guess.

The second thing is I really want to tell my Mom that I am pregnant but since I had a m/c at 8 weeks before I am leery to tell her until the 12 week mark. If we lived in the same city, I would confide in her but she lives on the East side of the country and I am on the West. It's a bit far. Right now I wish I could go home and spend some time with her. She would be so sympathetic to how I am feeling.

I am going into my 8th week this week. I am trying not to be nervous and stay positive. I don't get an U/S until they do testing for DS etc at 15 weeks. I hope little "Fe" (pronounced Fee) is ok. We have been calling my small pudge of a belly that... hehe... short for Fetus! Haha... It seems to have caught on. My fiancee has been saying Fe as well.

Plus can cats tell this early that I am pregnant? My small cat won't cuddle on top of my how she used to and seems to be centering her attention on my sig other and she neve did that before. He is wondering if she can smell the pregnancy hormones.... I am very curious. Perhaps I will have to "google" that.