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02-10-2009 - When Is This Gonna Be Over

My mood while writing this blog: ready

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So I've gotten to the point where most mother-to-be's get when they hit 36 weeks.. or earlier. I want this pregnancy to be over with so I can get back to my old life & meet my little munchkin. I am tired of not sleeping, tinkling every 2 hours, not being able to walk long distances, acne, dry skin, swollen feet and not having any clothes that fit. This feeling doesn't make me a bad person because everyone goes through it at some point during pregnancy, but I can't help feeling guilty for wanting him here. Yes I want him to be chubby & healthy, but this whole thing is taking a toll on me emotionally and physically. And honestly, I don't know how much more of this I can handle. I just want him here, in my arms and to be healthy. Geeze! Is that too much to ask for?! I've had a great pregnancy thus far. Still no complications or anything of that nature. I know I'm blessed..some people aren't even able to bear children and here I am complaining. This truly isn't my nature to complain, but like I said I am tired. If you have been reading my blogs or know me personally then you will know I am always this happy go lucky type of person. I don't feel like myself right now. And I've lost total control of my body and emotions. I just want to weep right now for no particular reason besides not having some type of control over this aspect of my life. It sucks so bad! Then on top of all that to not even see a glimmer of hope down the road. When the doctor told me my cervix was still closed yesterday I wanted to scream and tell her she was lying. Who am I to call someone a lie though? She wasn't being paid to lie or make me feel hopeless. Her job was to access the situation and let me know my condition and that is exactly what she did! Heck yea it hurt, but again I have no control over that aspect of my body so all I can do is deal. And yes I know some people walk around for weeks dilated to 1 and 3 centimeters and still go to 42 weeks. Then there are some that have a closed cervix in their 37th week and then a week later go into labor naturally, but man it's hard to hear those words still. Anyway I'm still praying for some progress at my next appointment on Wednesday. Just a little rant. Please keep your negative comments to yourself women. I'm already emotionally torn. Anywho, tons of labor dust to those 37 weeks or more+++++++++++ and baby dust to those still TTC +++++++++++.

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5 Comments on When Is This Gonna Be Over


Model-Mommy - Saturday, 3 Oct
OMG I AM SOOO THERE WITH YOU!!!! THIS ABBY IS PUTTING A STRAIN ON MY BODY! I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T GO ANY LONGER BUT I HAVE TO!!! IT SEEMS LIKE SHE'LL BE HERE IN NO TIME BUT THE DAYS SEEM TO GO BY SOOOO SLOW! I GUESS WE JUST GOTTA HANG IN THEIR FOR OUR LITTLE ONES!

faith09 - Saturday, 3 Oct
I so understand! I think every woman starts to feel this way in the end, so dont feel bad! It'll all be over before we know it and Im sure i'll miss being pregnant 5 months from now!

MiSS Jen-aNd-LiL MiSS Active - Friday, 2 Oct
WOW!! I read this, and it could have been me writing this..LOL I feel EXACTLY the same.. I look at my clothes and it makes me wanna cry cuz nothing fits.. I look at my old modeling pictures and i just wanna cry, cuz i feel like i have let myself go.. but i know im just pregnant, i will work hard to get my body back, but that time seems so far away.. I feel like its dragging now.. and i am soooo tired of this whole pregnancy thing.. Like u, i havent had no complaints or complications throughout, and there is people who are on bedrest..LOL i just want it over with now..=( Its normal to feel like this.. but i just wish it would hurry... we havent got long left =)

expecting-2b-patient (Cheryl) - Friday, 2 Oct
Girl I know how you feel! I have gotten to the point where I am ready for the pregnancy to be over and be holding my baby boy! I feel just like you and guilty for complaining at times- I've had 2 miscarriages and feel like I am in no position to complain about anything! But like you said, I think it is just natural at this point, we have come so far and are just so anxious to meet the baby we have been carrying! Don't you have an induction date already? I have no signs of early labor either, not even one braxton hicks, no dropping, nothing. But that doesn't mean he can't deside to show up in a few days-- ya never know.

flymommy - Friday, 2 Oct
Awww, i totally undersatnd how you feel. I was peeing constantly, couldnt walk, was out of breathe...the whole nine. I actually ended up having my baby the day i turned 37 weeks. The funny thing is that now I miss being pregnant, lol. My advice would be to cherish this time (even thought you are miserable) and definitely cherish the time your in labor. Its an experience you only get to have once. Your baby will be here soon. Get plently of rest and await the arrival of your miracle. He'll be here before you know it !!!!!!!!!