08-5-2008 - Doctor appt

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

My day was awful...but it is getting better! This morning I was violently throwing up again and contracting. I seriously thought I wasn't going to be strong enough to go through it again. After about five hours of constant vomitting...it was just bile and blood. Sorry that is gross, but it's true. I was miserable. I didn't think I was going to be able to make it to my appointment and needing to go to L&D. The whole office looks at me with such pity coming in throwing up. I always try to be so strong and positive. Today I just burst into tears while talking to the nurse. I was so sick and I just was breaking down. The doctor came in and burst into tears again. Then I pulled myself together. I had thrown up EVERYHING in me and nothing was left and I started to feel better. She asked if I wanted to go get an IV to get hydrated and I just wanted to try to do it on my own and not have to spend more time in the hospital.

Even with being stuck in bed, and being on the procardia there has been cervical change! I'm 80% effaced and there was more dilation! So really it could be anytime---but they didn't want to get my hopes up since I have been contracting so strongly and things have moved so slowly. She said if I didn't have the baby by early next week they would schedule me to come in and talk early in the week. We ended up just getting an appt next Wednesday. Today...they weren't going to stop labor, but they aren't going to do anything to advance it. Even though I am SO sick we all really want this baby to be full term. So that is that. I am feeling human again. I've been contracting since we left and am very uncomfortable, but am not throwing up now! Thank God! We'll have to see what happens....