26-1-2009 - 7w0d

My mood while writing this blog: tired and sick

I woke up this morning with terrible pains in my back and abdomen which turned out to be an extremely full bladder and sore muscles. I still am getting morning sickness and I am really hoping that it goes away soon. It's making this pregnancy a nightmare and I really hope that I have twin boys or twin boy and girl so that I don't have to do this anymore. As scarry as twins would be, I think it might be better than doing this more than once. My husband is rooting for twins too but I don't think he understands that I will not be able to work if we have twins. When I went into the doctor's office on Thursday he mentioned twins and asked if they ran in the family so maybe he saw something that is leaning in the direction of twins. I noticed this morning that my bbs are getting bigger and that they are a little sore all the time but not bad. I'm a little worried about breastfeeding and whether or not it will hurt. I am determined to breastfeed so I just know it's going to be hard. I am also determined to have a natural childbirth so I know it's going to hurt like hell. I am not going to fool myself into thinking that it will all be fine and everyone is just making a big deal out of nothing. I know it will hurt and I'm just hoping I won't be nausious for the whole thing because nausia is my downfall. I can handle pain, I was a soldier, but nausia makes me into a big fat baby and I just can't handle anything.

I've been reading about the 3D/4D ultrasounds and they seem pretty cool. There is one in San Antonio that we could go to but I don't know if it will be expenisve. If any of you have done it, how much did it cost? Was it very expensive? I'm sure it was worth the expense but there is a limit to the amount of money I have... That would be so neat to show my kids their faces before they were born!

I'm getting excited about the prospect of teaching my own kids! I know it will be hard but I think it will be very rewarding. Dave is excited about it too. He want to see if they will turn out to be good grown ups. He and I have both seen how bad public schools are and don't want to expose our children to it. I think the only good thing that came out of public school for me was getting so depressed that I lost seventy pounds. I don't think I would have done that if I had been at home but then again it was my homelife that made me so fat in the first place.

Anyway, I'm glad I'm in week seven already. It's nice to see the weeks ticking by so quickly.