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Nikki Lee
	Age: 28 Country: New Zealand Province/region: City: Wellington Partner: Fiance Children: Yes, 2 Pregnant: Please select Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: Stay at home Mummy
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12-6-2009 - Sad

My mood while writing this blog:
Just so sad:(

Well the title just say it all.......
I have been so incredibly down over the last few days. It kinda started when I got AF last weekend, its the first since my m/c which seems like a lifetime ago now. Im sad coz I actually thought that I was pregnant again, I had the metallic taste in my mouth and was so tired, but no, AF came which made me cry. I think it brought back feelings of when I had the m/c which I may have not really dealt with and im thinking that the only reason why I seemed happy was because I thought I would be able to fall pregnant straight away, stupid I know!
Work at the moment is really stressing me out and im just so tired! I told a collegue that I hate my job, im so over being boss and dealing with everyone elses crap when I cant even deal with my own. Ive had to do such long hours lately coz of staff changes and staff being sick ect, my poor family are copping it coz sometimes im unbearable to be around. My daughter got so mad with me one moring and asked why I leave when its still dark (7am) and come home when its dark now (almost 6pm) then when im home im too tired to even talk!
Im also so down with myself. Im not in the pill anymore, havnt been since Feb and my skin is so dam ugly! Im totally breaking out and with me being so down im comfort eating and not even going to the gym!
I really cant wait for my best frind to come home from the UK, its been 2 very long years and I just need her shoulder to cry on as no one esle understands me like she does! My poor man tries to understand but he cant and we both end up getting shitty at each other. We had a little shitty moment with each other this morning before I left for work and it made me down for most of the day, he came by once he had finished and said that we will sit down and talk about whatever I want to make me feel better if thats what I need to do. That made me feel so much better.
On a brighter note, we are officially TTC as AF is over, my man is very keen which is encouraging!
What a blah blog, but needed to get it out!

5 Comments on Sad

Blessedbeyondbelief - Tuesday, 4 Aug
I love your due date - that is my 37th birthday! Good luck to you!

readyfor3 - Friday, 3 Jul
hi there, wondering where you've been. Sorry you are having a tough time. If you got AF on June 12, then you must be ovulating now! Get BDing! I am in teh 2ww now, one week to go! Fingers crossed!

BabySaunders - Saturday, 13 Jun
Awww chica I'm so sorry :( I'm sure I would have been sad with AF too. Just know that the doctors say it's better to wait for one AF before you TTC again. I wish I was near you. I feel like we basically went through everything together and you're in my thoughts alot. I know you'll be preggers again soon. I'm happy your best bud is coming! I always love having mine around too :) **Sticky baby dust to you!**

~ I luv my boyz ~ - Friday, 12 Jun
Hope a bfp comes your way!!!!!!!

mum2onex - Friday, 12 Jun
a new month a new start which is always good :)

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