03-11-2009 - DH

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Sorry to do this to you girls!!

I'm writing cause i don't know what to do anymore, DH is on leave and he is never home, (he has recovered from Gambling) i don't want to blv that he has gone back again, he use to sleep there cause he had finished money and he would call me to come and fetch him cause he doesn't have transport, and because i never new that he is a gambler i would go and fetch him and it's far from home, anyway, i happen to find out that he was gambling when one of his friends called to ask for him and he (DH) wasn't in and he was worried cause he said to me "i think he is in trouble and i should report him as missing to the police, he is a gambler and he thinks they robed him or something" he didn't wanna say what the "something" was....

I then called the police and we found him at the Emperors Palace with no money smelling of booze and filthy dirty!!!!!! i nearly vomitted with disgust. Anyway he admited to it and got help from GA (gambling annonymous) now girls for the past few weeks he has been acting strangely, last night to top it all he didn't sleep at home!!!! (don't know how to act but i'm not happy obviouly) and he doens't have a phone cause he was not suppose to be in contact with his previous friends, as i said he is on leave- he doesn't help with the tiding up in the house he can't even wash his dish he drinks a lot and everytime when i try to make a conversation he gives me this funny face and act all angry for no reason at all.

I feel i don't love him anymore and he is not respecting me and we were not ment for each other, i don't think we even need cancelling cause i mean it's clear!!

At this point i'm trying not to worry cause of my medical condition and with my Beautiful Boy on the way! (I've got High Blood Pressure)

Pleas advise!!!