23-6-2009 - Attitude or Not

My mood while writing this blog: angry, sad, confused..

Okay ladies I really need your advice on this.... so right now I am totally pissed off at my BD. Of course this past Sunday was father's day and this man did not even make an attempt to see his daughter, I even called him to tell him happy fathers day and do you think he mentioned anything about us coming to see him or him coming to see us ... NO! Now mind you he leaves about 30 minutes away from us in another county and in the county he lives in he has a baby by this other woman. So I called him around noon Sunday and he was just getting out of church .. told him happy father's day and hung up from him b/c he got another call. Do you think he called back .. NO! I didn't even hear from him until 11 o'clock that night. So I asked him how his father's day was and what he did.. well he told me he went to a cookout and came home and went to sleep!!! I swear I smell BULLSHIT!!!! I think this muthafucka went to his other baby mama house and spent time with her and his other daughter ( I don't have proof...but I just have this urging feeling). Okay so now that I'm thinking this on top of the fact he didn't see his daughter I have this horrible attitude with him.. he doesn't know why and I haven't told him b/c I foresee an argument.. and I'm trying to get over this man and move on with my life but things like this truly piss me off and I know I'm not completely over him yet.

So my question is should I tell him why I'm mad and get it off my chest or should I just leave it alone... I know if I leave it alone I will continue to have this attitude but I hate keeping things balled up. OH GOD.. I wish I could just get him out my life and stop feeling for him and letting things he do get to me!!!!!!!!!!!!