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	Age: 25 Country: Canada Province/region: Alberta City: Ardmore Partner: Rohdy Children: Yes, 2 Pregnant: No Occupation: Super Mom
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03-5-2009 - Relationship stress.

My mood while writing this blog:
Upset.

So, I have been bottling this up for a while now.

It's a long story and I will try to keep it short. Last Summer I got engaged to my sons father..also my on and off boyfriend since we were 16, he was my first...everything. He worked 5 hours away from where I lived at the time...and wanted me to move up north with him. And I was scared. I found a guy in the city I live in and kind of jumped in head first...I broke off the engagement in order to be with this new guy who I thought was fun, and exciting. We pretty much immediately got pregnant with my last pregnancy. When I lost that baby....we weren't trying to get pregnant right away again, but we did...and now I'm 19 weeks, expecting our daughter in Sept. Long story short....I'm pretty sure I don't love him as much as I should for our situation....He's very controlling, he had to work out of town last week...and again this week, but he actually COUNTED to condoms we had in our bedroom before he left....

I don't go out often with my friends...well make that like never, so last night I had a girls night with one of my friends to celebrate my 25th B-Day....And things were fine at first, but then he phoned my cell like 3 times within one minute and b/c I couldn't HEAR my phone, he started texting me asking where I was and what I was doing..... And this is sadly a regular occurance. I feel like he relies on me to MAKE him happy, instead of two happy people coming together to make a happy family.

So last night I think I came to the conclusion I can't make this work with him, and honestly don't really WANT to. I'm so scared because I don't work right now, and live with him and am having his daughter...I feel so trapped.

2 Comments on Relationship stress.

notnottrying - Monday, 4 May
So sorry for what you are going through, but I agree with some of the others, your gut is usually right, and chances are your feelings wont change... Unless this is a sudden impulsive thought, in which case, things might get better... Good luck, I know you will make the right choice for you and your baby girl

supaflychick1982 - Sunday, 3 May
I'm never one to tell someone to leave or tell them to stay in any relationship unless it's imperative because i never want to seem like I want them to join me whether i'm single or coupled up. However, if your feelings and your gut is telling you something then chances are that is what you're meant to do. just move on and be prepared to do it single, many woman do it today and when you find that right fit (who may be your ex) then it will fall into place. i just don't believe in jumping from 1 man to the next without a little bit of soul searching in between. and i'm not implying that you was going to do just that. good luck. but possessiveness and controlling are not very good qualities for relationships.

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