31-5-2009 - Reason for my not being around.

My mood while writing this blog: So fed up

this is a long one...sorry guys.

Ok, so a few of you have noticed I've been offline for a few days. It all starts on Friday when I went to a movie with my son, and we got home at 11 pm. I was still living with my ex as we shared a house and everything, but had been making arrangements to move as soon as my son was done school.

Well, we got home and of course the ex wants to talk relationship stuff, to which I said no because he does this all the time, and plus he had been drinking and i could tell. So he continues to fight with me and starts to yell. He actually fell down the stairs head first at one point while talking to me bc he was so loaded. I also noticed he had CARVED letters into his chest with what he later admitted was a knife.So I texted my sons father to come pick him up bc I didn't want him around a drunk who was yelling at me. When my ex found out my sons father was coming to get his son, he said he was going to "pull him out of his vehicle and beat the living shit out of him"....I freaking lost it! And my ex also said if I left him that "that was going to be the end of him" (meaning he would kill himself, as he has threatend this in the past).

So, when my sons father got there, my ex went outside yelling, at which point I called 911 bc I was scared shitless. Long story short, they came and arrested him to take him to the hospital for assesment for a mental issue and whatnot. I had to write a big statement with this female cop and then was told I should leave the house for the night bc there was a chance he'd be back that night. I got a text from him at 2:30am asking me to come pick him up...wtf?! I said no freaking way.

In the morning he called me (I had stayed the night at a friends house) and wanted me to come home so we could have "a fun day"...I seriously thought maybe he didn't remember what happend the night before...But I said no, I cannot come back to the house until you leave(he works out of town during the week). I told him he should let his parents know what happend..so that he could at least get their support if he was going to need councelling or whatever....So that same day at 12:30pm, his mother calls me and extremely rudely/bitchily tells me I need to be at the house at 1:30pm to get all of my stuff(Which is EVERYTHING I own) out by 2:30pm because she's having the locks changed...so I better get some trucks and some guys and get my shit out.....I was baffled. But with a wing and a prayer...I DID IT! I think she thought I wouldn't be able to, but I did.

I did fall down the stairs while moving bc I was hurrying to try and get all the stuff out with the hour we had...and I did start bleeding but I stopped so I tried not to worry, but I am so mad at my ex and his family for putting me in the position to where I almost lost the baby.

So, now I'm living at my mothers house ( No wireless internet so I have to use her crappy slow computer) which I why i won't be on as much. I will be living here until i have the baby, at which point I will be moving 6 hours north to live with my sons father and my son. I guess some good did come out of this bc I'm back together with my first love. And he is SUPER excited to be having a baby with me even though it's not biologically his.