I've always had issues with my weight. Back in 9th grade (2002-2003) I was rather chubby. I weighed 170 lbs, and was just really unhappy. The summer of 2003, I started to run and I lost a bit of weight by the time I started 10th grade. By the time I was in 11th grade (that january) I was in a good spot, and was happy about my body, and it lasted from then until I graduated from highschool. I was now 140 lbs. The spring of my junior year I went through like.. 3 different boys. LOL! Guys started to really get interested in me, and I loved it. So I kept it up starting my Senior year, and that's when I met Kamil, and we dated the whole year. I started going to the gym daily in Jan. of '06, and was in the best shape of my life. We moved down to Illinois from Michigan a month after I graduated, and even though I wasn't going to the gym, I was running almost everyday and eating right. The first few weeks we lived there, nobody had any money, so we all lived on cereal, and I lost a few more pounds because of it. And then that September, we were married by the court. I guess after being with him for so long, and then finally getting married, I started to get really comfortable, and kind of let myself go. Kind of. That following June (2007) I weighed between 5 and 10 lbs more than what I had come down weighing. My weight always flucuated, and I've kind of been battling it ever since. I found out July 4th I was pregnant, so naturally I had been gaining a few lbs from that. Then 6 days later, I had a m/c. I lost a pound or two, but then Sept. 21st, I found out I was pregnant again. And I've been pregnant ever since. Now don't get me wrong. I'm sooo blessed and happy to be pregnant. It's not something I'm taking lightly. And of course I've been eating lots of healthy food. But that's obviously not stopping me from gaining weight. And I'm just having issues with it. I'm so much bigger than Kamil now. He's always been thin due to his super crazy high metabolism. Even when I was a lot thinner, I still felt bigger than him cuz I'm big boned. So I've got big hands and big feet. His hands and feet are still bigger than mine, and he's taller than I am, but I can't help it! So yea. That's just my issue of the week. I'm trying really hard to get over it, because I don't want to hold resentment towards my baby for making me gain this weight. I just.. I don't know. I wish I had a friend close to me that was going through the same thing I am! I can't go to Kamil and complain about gaining weight, cuz he gets mad and rolls his eyes. He just doesn't understand. *sighs*

Anyway!! Happy time! I've got my OB appt. this coming wednesday. I'm gonna ask them to at least listen to the heartbeat, so I can stop being so paranoid. Hopefully everything is going like it should!!