21-5-2008 - Jan. 7th, 2008

My mood while writing this blog: Frustrated

Wooooo! 20 weeks today!! I'm so excited! My belly is finally starting to round out just a bit. And it looks as if my bellybutton will pop out within the month or so. :) I'm just so excited about this pregnancy now. At first, I was getting rather depressed, but now is totally different! I'm happy about it!!! Things are also starting to pick up for me. I start school tonight. I go every Monday and Wednesday night, 6-9pm. (classes end May 5th) I've got an OB appt tomorrow morning at 11 (I have to remember to drink lots of water, as they always make me pee!), and I also find out about my job tomorrow, too :D I applied for a job at Buckle - a store at the mall, and had an interview this past Friday. I let them know I was pregnant, but that I wanted to work until I had to go to the hospital, and that I wanted to come back! So things are looking good there :D So school and possibly work, will definitely keep me busy until our little princess gets here! Also! We should be moved into an apartment by the end of this month :D I'm so excited about that!! Then we'll be able to look for cribs and changing tables, and get a theme going! I'm not sure if we'll be able to paint, as different apartment places have different policies, but I'm hoping so!

So today I only have a bit of a problem. Well... something that is bothering me, which could quite possibly turn into a problem once baby is here. Kamil told me the other day that once our baby gets here, we'll be traveling down to his parents house EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND. Well, he said "all the time" but he works during the week, so that can only leave every weekend! They live 3-4 hours and 2 states down from us. I think he's crazy! It's as if he sees the baby as an accessory, and doesn't care that I'm gonna be the one getting up all hours of the night with the baby! I told him no, absolutely not. I'm gonna be so dead tired all the time, and you cannot just cart a newborn around. You'd need a crib and all that, too. It just blows my mind that he'd even think of that! Now, I know he wants his parents to see the baby. And I told him that if they want to, they can come up, but they can't stay with us since we'll have a small apartment. And I also told him I don't want them there all the time. I'm not trying to sound like a bitch! Cuz I don't want my parents there all the time either! Especially the first 4 or so months! His mom just really grates on my nerves.. Yes, she's excited, as this is her first grandbaby. But I mean... they're all from Poland, and I'm from America, so our cultures are VERY DIFFERENT. Not Kamil's, since he's been here since he was like.. 5 yrs old, and he's 22 now. But his mother is still stuck in her ways. She rubs my belly all the time (I HATE BEING TOUCHED RIGHT NOW!) and last weekend when we went down here, SHE GRABBED MY BOOB AND SQUEEZED IT!!! :O Then said, Oh yea. They're getting fuller. LIKE NO SHIT?! It made me so mad! YOu don't just grab my boob! Or anybody elses boob! Espeically that of a pregnant woman!! I told Kamil about it, and told him it really made me mad, and he just rolled his eyes and told me to quit being a baby. He doesn't stand up for me to his mom. She should know better than to just come up to me and grab me like that. Just pissed me off so bad. I'm so mad now, just thinking about it. So this is another bigger reason I don't want them up here all the time. I'm gonna have to put my foot down, and tell him like.. every 3rd weekend they can come up and see the baby. They have their own restaurant, so I know they won't be able to stay a whole weekend, which is fine with me, but I'm not gonna let Kamil drag me down there all the time, either. I'm finally gonna be in my own place, and I'm gonna be with my own little family. I don't need to run back and forth!

Am I right in thinking this? I don't wanna come off sounding... unfair. I just can't seem to get him to see my point. He just thinks I'm being a bitch and I just wanna keep him from seeing his family, and keep his family from seeing the baby; which I'm not at all! If he wants to go down there, then he can! He's just not gonna take the baby with him.. SOMEBODY HELP ME! MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT THINKING THIS WAY!!!