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|11-1-2012 - The Uncertainty of Life
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I found out last week that my dad is on hospice for cancer. Just took a week off of work to drive to Texas and clear the air. That said, I know he is going to die. It is all a question of when. Knowing that it will probably be within the next few months the decision to start TTC has been postponed. I cannot rationalize in my mind why I would try and get pregnant only to know I will suffer much stress and grief. I know that is not healthy for a growing baby. So we are going to shoot for a TTC start month of June. Depending on how the year goes we could try anywhere from April to December. It's hard to have to wait, but I feel it will benefit our 2nd child the most. I cannot risk losing a baby AND a parent. Not sure I am strong enough to battle that one. So until then, going to focus on my weight watchers and try and get into better shape. Life just loves to throw us curveballs.
3 Comments on The Uncertainty of LifeLovingRNMommy
- Thursday, 12 Jan Aw I am SO sorry about your dad!! It's going to be a tough road, but keep your chin up as much as possible and push along. My boyfriend's dad JUST passed away unexpectedly of a massive heart attack at home on Sunday. It was a huge shock of course and he will have a long road of grieving, however he has mentioned having a close loved one (me) and friends/family being there for him helps immensely. The more support the better! Cherish as many moments as possible with your dad when you go to TX. Hang in there. If you need anyone to talk to we're all here. *hugs* RNMom2010
- Wednesday, 11 Jan Thank you girls for all the support. BabySaunders
- Wednesday, 11 Jan So sorry to hear about your dad. I can't imagine losing a parent while you're still so young. As hard as it is to wait to conceive I think you're doing the right thing. Just focus on family. Big hugs girlie