12-5-2008 - Update!

My mood while writing this blog: Sleepy!

UGH i was just typing this great update almost done n i dont know what the hell happened. I am so mad cuz it was so damn long n now i have to write it all over again.. UGHHHHHHHH!!!!

Well here i go!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE MOMMIES N MOMMIES TO BE, WE ARE ALL SO BLESSED! (please TTC ladies do not feel offended by my remark u will soon also experience this wonderful joy, just be patient and have faith... all in God's time!)

I will continue my update as it was been since my last update. I went to Ohio to visit my sister for a week. My nephew's birthday party was wonderful! and baptism was beautiful! Everything went great! My little getaway was great :) since some of u know that i had been having some trouble with my bf. The entire time i was there he never failed me even once to call me to say good morning or good night to both me n our daughter. He was constantly texting me all day. Unfortunately, he kept picking fights with me :(. Over everything! I went away to be away not suffocated n glued to a phone. So sometimes i wouldnt pick up his phone calls if i was with my family or watching TV or simply doing anything at all. N when i did pick up i tried getting off. If it was night time i would tell him good night quick n get off the phone n he would hate it n pick fights with me, or if in the morning i would tell him i was going to get something to eat that we would speak later. Gosh he fought me over everything! He kept leaving me messages when i didnt pick up asking me y i was ignoring him that he wasnt calling me cuz he wanted to speak to me but cuz he missed his daughter. It was all about his daughter! Not me! N that just aggravated me so much. I mean i am so happy he loves her so much n cares for her deeply but can i get some care? It was all about how is my baby how is she behaving has she kicked u today? how many times? is she sleeping right now?.... blah blah blah.... ugh i was so sick n tired of him calling me n not once did her bother to ask me how are you doing? well maybe he did once or twice but he was on the phone with me constantly thru text he could asked more than once or twice. NO? well i would try to ignore him n simply get off the phone n he'd pick fights with me every day, then call me 5 mins later to tell me how lonely it felt to be home alone. I just could not stand him. On my way back home i was seriously considering going back to my parents by next day! I got home n he was sleeping on the couch ***he had not been allowed to sleep on my bed!*** i did not wake him, instead i showered n went straight to sleep. I woke up later n he was creeping inside my sheets so i turned around facing away from him n gave him my back lol. He immediately went next to me n hugged me so hard!!! he started kissing my shoulder n head over n over. I asked him to get off n he wouldnt stop he just held me tighter n tighter n kept saying NO! then idk how but he managed to turn me around n asked me how my trip went. I told him it was great. I told him all about it making it sound oh so perfect lol. He would just stare at me n smile for no reason what so ever. So i got tired of him being on my bed n i told him to leave to school that i wanted to rest. He said he wasnt gunna go that he missed me n our princess to much that school would survive one day without him. I told him no that he must go n not to lie to me about missing me cuz he only missed his daughter n made it very clear. N he laughed n shed a tear at the same time n told me how much he missed me thats why he kept picking fights with me cuz he could not beleive i wanted to be away from him. He said he couldnt stand knowing that whatever i was doing was more important than speaking to him n left him aside n thats y he kept picking fights with me n i told him he tried to spoil my great time but did not succeed n he tried to kiss me n i pushed him away. Then he held me n started telling me how beautiful i am blah blah blah lol. Later he did succeed because i missed him so much since b4 i left. N ever since angel has been great. He has treated me with so much more love n respect. He is constantly showing me how much he loves me tries to spend more time with me now :)

Tuesday i went for my glucose test which i'm still waiting for the results. I also told my doc about me possibly having a yeast infection n she said that yes it looked like i had that n gave me medicine to treat it n also sent samples for more tests to be done n make sure it is only that n nothing else. n i'm also waiting for results on that. but i feel muh better so i think it was just a yeast. Also doc said i was 2cm dialted. I also went to ER yesterday early in the A.M. n was there for about 5 hours. I was having pain, period like cramps n my stomach was really hard, turned out i was told i was only 1.5 cm dialated n my cervix is very low. The pain was cuz i was dehydrated they said :/ n i should drink more fluids! n the hard belly was cuz i was having contractions... So no more sex no more nothing. I have to be in bed all day with my legs up till 35 weeks... but ugh i cant do that i dont do much anyway so i'm continuing my everyday routine just being more careful :)

Baby is doing great! Angel n I r doing great... everything is great right now! :)