14-5-2008 - HISTORY UPDATES

My mood while writing this blog: Lonely...

25 WEEKS 4 DAYS - APRIL 22, 2008

EVER SINCE ANGEL AND I MOVED INTO OUR NEW APARTMENT, I'VE NOT BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP UNLESS MY BELLY IS SQUISHED AGAINST HIM SO SHE CAN FEEL HIM N MY LEG HAS TO BE OVER HIS BACK OR CHEST... PLEASE DONT ASK ME HOW ITS COMFORTABLE LOL. WELL ABOUT A WEEK AGO MAYBE I SENT ANGEL TO THE COUCH (*DIVORCE* LOL) N SHE HAS NOT LET ME SLEEP AT ALL... SHE MOVES EVERYWHERE MAKING SURE NO MATTER WHERE I MOVE OR TURN I'M UNCOMFORTABLE!!! I GUESS THIS IS MY PUNISHMENT FROM HER FOR KICKING HER DADDY OUT OF BED LOL... OH WELL I LOVE IT LOL... AS LONG AS SHE DOESNT GO CRAZY, WHICH HAPPENS 90% OF THE TIME LOL... BUT I'VE TRIED VIDEO TAPING HER BUT ITS LIKE SHE KNOWS OR SOMETHING LOL CUZ SHE STOPS MOVING... LUCKILY I GOT A NEW PHONE THAT LETS ME UPLOAD BIG VIDEOS LOL... SO SORRY IT'S SO LONG... BUT U CAN SEE I THINK HER SHOULDER POPPING OUT N MOVING... SORRY NOT SO CLEAR :(

SHE'S A GIRL!!!!

Tuesday November 6, 2007 - I figured my babies dont want mommy n daddy apart... i thought for sure there was no way i could possibly look at Angel the same... i was right in a way but at the same time no... I look at him n i fall deeper n deeper in love with him... and i feel this is our kids playing cupid on us lol... I have been cramping yesterday n today.. not so much today but def yesterday i felt it on my right side by my bones lol.... maybe that's obulation? i dont know... but i'm scared if so cuz Angel n I missed each other alot and... yesterday.... well ya know.... Hope things work out for the best... God Bless everyone!!

Wednesday November 7, 2007 - Gosh Angel is prolly gun be a daddy now! lol as i said about monday.. well now today we had another booboo.. we are both laughing about it not worried just gunna wait n see... imma test on the 13th n then on the 15th if negative both times then wait another 2 days n so on n so on...... wish me luck! n pray for me if i am pregnant to please keep my baby safe!!! :)

I'm just here to try n help people that are dealing with what i've delpt with in the past n to meet new beautiful stories.

Monday, 12 Nov - Well Angel has been great this weekend.. he is showing me to care for me alot more now... which to me is great cuz i was really afraid he would never change for me.. but he is doing it n he is making me really happy... I love this man to death.. i know this is God's work on us.. cuz we are making things work so great together... I hope to get a BFP by sunday! i am so looking forward to this... i hope not to get disappointed... cuz this was so unexpected... i just hope God wants this for me now... :)

Tuesday, 13 Nov - I was really hungry but i didnt finish all my food.. Nipples are no longer soar, or as soar as they were a few days ago. Boobs itch!! CM is milk white not stretchy AT ALL! i have a horrible soar throat n peeing more times a day than usual!

Wednesday, 14 Nov - Hey ladies i tested last night as soon as i bought the tests lol.. of course they were negative as expected since it was so soon... or is so soon still.. so i didnt test this morning like i had said i would instead i'm testing on friday if negative again then i'll wait till tuesday if negative again i'll wait for my period next friday... wish me luck to not be tempted to test everyday while at boredom! lol

Wednesday, 14 Nov - lol this was me yesterday at the store buying 5 pregnancy test lol

Thursday, 15 Nov - Today i have a horrible cold! Boobs are starting to get soar just a tidy bit though! i'm having real minor cramps like AF is due in a few days lol but it's not due till the 23rd. These past few days i've been using the bathroom more, not only to do #1 but also #2 i've heard of constipation but i was not constipated at all, i was going normally just more than usual! i dont know if that's normal, a sign or no... anywho that's how i feel so far! n my CM is watery still! been like that since yesterday! has a yellow color to it kinda light brown... sorry to be so gross ladies!! :(

Thursday, 15 Nov - i'm really emotional right now.. i feel all my hard work is pointless... it's like i keep trying to fight for something that just isn't mine... :'(

Thursday, 15 Nov - I just tested... i think it's a possitive :) i am so excited... like u know when u pee on the test the whole thing is pink.. n then one line comes out darker n then the second posstive line comes out right?? well for me the whole thing went pink the normal line came out n where the possitive is supposed to be there was a white line.. cuz the rest of the test was still pink turning white.. also the test i took monday night has a yellow line where the possitive is supposed to be :) girl i really think i'm pregnant now.. i think it's an early possitive!!! Oh i am so excitd.. lets see what i get tomorrow n then on sunday n then tuesday.. i am so excited!! lol.. i will keep everyone posted as soon as i find out fir sure.. i hope i'm not going crazy n making shit up in my mind lol... n i hope i really do finally get my little miracle.. wishme lots n lots of luck ladies!! :)

Sunday, 18 Nov - Hey ladies sorry i haven't been on lately but i just quit my job friday morning and i've just been resting and spending time with angel. But my update is, as i told you before i thought i had gotten a possitive the other night... well i tested friday morning and i'm not sure again if that was a possitive or negative cuz it seemed like a faint possitive but not sure if i'm just seeing things. i don't feel pregnant but i've been cramping a little... i'm testing again tomorrow:-) i'll let u know!

Monday, 19 Nov - Hey ladies i tested yesterday and i got a possitive:-) i am so excited i'm sorry i haven't been on but i'm on my phone right now gunna be online in about an hour or so... my bed is too warm to get up lol... i will be testing again tomorrow to make sure for sure that YES i am indeed pregnant:-) wish me luck ladies!

Tuesday, 20 Nov - yay i just tested and i got a possitive!!

Pregnancy Survey
About You
Name?:	Rosalyn
Age?:	21
Height?:	5'4
Pre-pregnancy weight?:	122
About The Father
Name?:	Angel
Age?:	25
Height?:	5'11
Are you still together?:	YES YES YES :)
About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?:	3rd, but my first 2 were miscarriages so i hope this is it!!
When did you find out you were pregnant?:	i've known since friday but, i've been on denial i guess i just wanted to not be disappointed. but today i accepted it lol Nov 19
Was it planned?:	NO WAY! lol
What was your first reaction?:	I'll wait 2 more days to make sure lol but nah...
Who was with you when you found out?:	no one
Who was the first person you told?:	Luz
How did your parents react?:	Well y brothers wer nosy enough to tell both my parents... my father isn't saying a word to me about it which is fine with me lol n my mom is happy n concernd :)
How far along are you?:	8 weeks
What was your first symptom?:	at first i was somewhat nauseous during nights but lately i've been really tired, hungry, and now get dizzy alot
What is your due date?:	August 1st, 2008
Do you know the sex of the baby?:	Nope, not yet... but i'm not sure now if i want to find out i just want to know my baby is safe n healthy!
If so, what is it?:	--
Have you picked out names?	Yes, kinda... only first names
If so, what are they?:	Boy- Angel like his father Girl- Alize Mackenzie... but still not sure
How much weight have you gained?:	3 pounds
Do you have stretch marks?:	No i hope i never get any!!
Have you felt the baby move?:	Not Yet :( cant wait i'm so excited n looking forward to all of this
Have you heard the heartbeat?:	118 @ 6w 3d 160 @ 7w 3d
About the birth
Will you keep the baby?:	DUH of course imma keep it!!! i am in love with my child!!!
Home or hospital birth?:	Hospital hopefully but where ever it is i just want my baby to be safe n healthy
Natural or medicated birth?:	I am not sure at all...i dont wanna go through the pain cuz it's scary but at the same time i think this time i wanna feel everything.. since i've lost my prior babies i kinda want to experience everything at full level!! but we'll see...
Who will be in the delivery room with you?:	umm... mom def n angel if he wants... maybe my sister as well
Will you breastfeed?:	Oh yeah!!
Do you think you'll need a c-section?:	i dont kmow but i hope not
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?:	Yes! i already am crying :)
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?:	i have no idea... i am just worried about this being ok
Would you let someone videotape the birth?:	i dunno maybe...
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?:	Excited cuz i want to hold my baby already n i'm only 3 weeks lol but also scared to make sure i do everything right :)

Wednesday, 21 Nov - ok ladies i got the finniest update lol... Angel had been in denial about my pregnancy cuz my dates just dont match right for me to be pregnant lol... well monday night Angel finally got convinced about our pregnancy lol.

Angel n i were watching TV n when i wanted to take my bra off but i couldn't my boobs hurt! they were so sensitive! than i told angel n he finally was convinced i was pregnant lol... he was like oh man u'r pregnant! boobies dont lie LMAO

earlier that day i told angel i had to go to my parents house to pick up my vitamins n he asked what for n i said cuz i ran out n he was like oh what u've been taking them? n i said yeah n he was like oh then thats why ur tests are coming out possitive cuz of the vitamins, u're not pregnant it's the vitamins LMAO he was in complete denial! its so funny!! but finally he is getting convinced as he sees day by day how i'm proceeding!

Friday, 23 Nov - Hey everyone... Happy THanksgiving!!! well i feel really really tired today probably from all the food i ate.. i am sure baby is fine cuz hes been making me a little sick today lol but nothing big i'm just not used to feeling sick during the day only at night but i am happy i am having these feelings cuz it is all worth it!!! well here is prove that i ate alot lol... but sure yet if this is me being fat, showing, bloated... or it was just a happy thanksgiving lol :)

Wednesday, 28 Nov - Hey ladies everything seems to be going on so far, but today i've been stressing myseld i think today cuz my brother got locked up so i've been trying to bail him out n now i'm having cramps n feel like my period is about to come. I feel like the cramps u feel right when ur first drop of blood (sorry TMI) is about to come out. I run to the bathroom n check if anything is coming out but nothing...i hope this is normal :(

Thursday, 30 Nov - well today ladies i am really excited... i think this baby is staying!! :) i am so happy about it... i have my boobs killing me n today for the very first time i feel really really really sick! i am so so so nauseous! i havent thrown up yet but i do burp, n when i do its the worst taste cuz it comes out with something n it taste kinda like vinegar or something n its really really gross!! I might sound weird for saying this but i really am so excited n looking forward to thrown up nonstop! lol cuz this way it feels more real n i know my harmones are going up n my baby is growing! n i have a growing bump to prove it :) EVERYONE..... i am so excited!!! :)

Sunday, 2 Dec - well today i got great news... while angel n i were broken up he got together with his friends n decided he would go to Costa Rica for 2 weeks on vacation with his friends. well today he told me he isnt going anymore cuz me n his baby are more important! I am so excited!! I hope he really doesnt go n isnt just saying that because he is broke right now... i hope he really does stay... the trip isnt till mid january so i hope he really stays :) i have been having cramping still today but not too strong i really hope everything is ok.. i am trying not to worry about it n let God do as he wishes!

You have a 46% chance of having a boy.
And you have a 53% chance of having a girl.

Wednesday, 5 Dec - Well ladies everything seems to be fine. I went to the emergency room on sunday n i got an ultrasoung and blood work there. Blood work came out good i think n ultrasound showed my embryo :). Unfortunately i could not see my embryo cuz the bitch that was doing the ultrasound wa a bitch n had the monitor away from me n i couldnt see shit. I asked her if i could see n she said no cuz there is nothing to see that i am way to soon to see anything. She asked me how far along i was n i told her 5 weeks. She said 'no u're not 5 weeks u're less because i cant see anything so if u are having a miscarriage there is nothing we can do to stop it. I cried my ass off for 2 hours waiting for the results from the doctor cuz i thought i would loose my baby. BUt doctor finally came n told me the pain is cuz i have a cyst on my left ovary, but that everything with the by seems ok because my bloodwork came out good n ultrasouns showed my the sac n the forming embryo. He told me to follow up with my doctor, which i did, today :) So hopefully thigns are all well. I went to my first official visit for this baby n everything seems good as well... but i have to wait 2 days for my blood work results n i did not get an ultrasound :( but hopefully when i get my results i can talk to my doctor n tell her i want an ultrasound next week. cuz i'm still cramping from sunday. I also got progesterone sup. so i hope that helps things to be stronger :) I hope that my baby is good which i think is :)... well i'll keep everyone updated... pray for my n my baby ladies so that my baby is safe inside of me :) buh bye

Monday, 10 Dec - well ladies i called in for my results from tuesday this morning. Everything is PERFECT! :) all my blood work results came out normal n negative so i am great. Then i asked what my harmone level was n they lady told me the nurse had forgetten to put it through so i had to go back in for blood work today so i can get my hcg. then i told my doctor that i wanted an ultrasouns cuz i wanted to make sure everything was ok cuz for the past 3 days i've been cramping hard. Well honestly i havent been cramping hard but sometimes its unconfortable but i exaggerated to get an ultrasound hehehe and i did. I saw my baby and the heart beat n i heart it go 118/min it was so amazing i've never experienced such wonder my entire life... i am so happy i will post up the pix in a few mins.. hope u guys like them although its not very clear :(

Friday, 21 Dec - Hey ladies well I havent posted in a while... nothing muchis happening with the baby besides it growing on my sides!!! :o( I had an ultrasound this past monday and i saw my baby... she got huge in only 7 days!!! her heart beat raised to 160bpm. I was so excited to see her n hear the doc say everything looks good:) i cant wait to meet my baby... well i also posted pix of my fat self so hope u like... i know i look like a fat ass!!! :o(

Sunday, 23 Dec - I want to see my baby again i miss seeing my baby... I hope everything is going well, i am still having my normal everyday symptons and still no sickness or nausea so i hope my baby is ok... I am hoping i get my princess :) I hope this online test is right :o)

Congratulations!

You have a 26% chance of having a boy.
And you have a 73% chance of having a girl.

Wednesday, 26 Dec - Call me horrible... but i miss old christmas!!! WHEN I GOT PRESENT!!! : `(These past few years christmas has been runing lower n lower n it suck... i havent been so upset about this ever lol but now i am.... i usually get at least over 20 gifts... this year i got 2 pants 2 shirts a sweater earings and necklace.. and timberland boots for my baby and a peruvian jersey.. yea cute but hell imma be getting fatter each day and i got nothin to wear... i `m really mad about this... atleast about a month ago angel got me a laptop so i cn relax with that lol... i wanted to get maternity clothes and only 1 shirt was maternity shirt... not very happy about it : `(

Sunday, 6 Jan - Hey ladies well i `ve been cramping alot since yesterday night... Angel left work and took me to the emergency room. I got to see my baby waving and kicking and moving up and down... it was amazing... but what worried me, doc said my baby `s heartbeat is at 120... it was at 182 not even 2 weeks ago and now 120??? i dont know i will have to check up with my OB and hopefully get another ultrasound soon to asure myself my baby is ok...

Tuesday, 8 Jan - i seem to love spending money... NO?? well i'm not happy with the results... now i'm really begining to think i'm having a boy... I want a girl so bad :(

period :

2007.10.26

Calculated Values Congratulations It's a Boy Due Date: Aug-01-2008 Child's Sign: Leo Mother's Sign: Leo Father's Sign: Virgo

Jan 8th - lol one day i get blue.. next i get pink... damn it!!

75 % chance of having a girl

Monday, 14 Jan - Ok so it `s official... I FEEL MY BABY... for the past week i `ve feeling sort of like butterflies in my belly kinda weird to explain... but last night i was in pain... my tail bone was killing me! i couldnt even get up from bed it was so painful... well i started getting scared but i didnt want to go to ER again cuz they never do $4!t for me besides take my piss steal my blood n finger me... sorry but honestly that `s all they do!!! so anyway my mom is in peru right now so i was real hesitant about who to ask if this was normal.. i came online n read alot of women have that pain at 11 weeks so i felt a little better thinking it could be normal... well i decided to go to my father... my father n i dont get along so well so it was real weird going to him, well i told him how i was feeling n him having 6 kids if it was normal for me to feel like this so early in pregnancy, he said yeah that i was normal that nothing was wrong... but he said let me see if i can hear the heart beat, wmy dad said that in my country doctors didnt use dopplars but plastic cups to try to find the heart beat lol... well my dad said he found the heart beat with the plastic cup n then started telling me it was normal n stuff n that everything was ok blah blah while his hand was on my belly as he spoke to me.. all of the sudden my belly moved real weird like i took a few quick deep breaths my dad immediately pulled his hand out n was like HOLY SHIT! lol i was like what happened? he was like didnt u feel that? i was like no i saw it move but i guess im breathing harder or something n he said NO UR BABY JUST HIT ME! lol i was like really? n he put his hand back on it n within about 5 seconds i felt like popcorn popping n my dad felt the baby it was so beautiful we both felt the rumbling in my belly he was like YEAH MAN U GOT A KICKER! lol i got so excited... well i saw angel today he took me to go buy more prenatals n my folic acid n the stuff n took me to the bank... then he took me to the movies... we played video games while we waited for the movie to start, n then he asked to please let him feel my belly, so i pulled my shirt up n he started kissing my belly... it was so beautiful i just wanted to cry but i held strong! lol then we were in the theater n he saw me holding my belly n he said where is the baby? so i started looking for the part that was most swollen lol n i said right here n he put his hand there n i said did u feel that? he was amazed n said wow i feel it its like swimming in there turning around n all i was like yup this is the same thing i felt last night with my dad n then went the popcorn feeling again lol n i think thats when she kicks lol angel was so happy n amazed! so there goes my update ladies.. MY BABY `S A POPCORN!!! LOL

January 17, 2007 she's kicking :)

Monday, 21 Jan - well ladies today i went to my ultrasound today to find out my baby `s risks for having down syndrome.... well everything went perfect i have a 1 in 10,000 risk and got to see my little bugger.... SHE `S A GIRL!!! the tech said she thinks it `s a girl and hasn `t been wrong so far in her many years of experience :) so i have a 90% chance of having a girl but March 20, i will be 20 weeks, and i will find out out then 100% if i am having a girl or boy :) but i am so happy to hear girl :D cuz she said she was pretty sure girl cuz since my baby wasn't moving so much and cooperating she could see perfectly :)

UPDATE: WELL AS MOST OF YOU KNOW, ANGEL IS AWAY ON VACATION TO COSTA RICA. WELL HE JUST GAVE ME A CALL TO ASK ABOUT THE APPOINTMENT ON HOW IT WENT... I TOLD HIM EVERYTHING WENT WELL I TOLD HIM SHE WAS A GIRL AND HE CRIED ON THE PHONE.. HE IS SO HAPPY AND EXCITED... HE SAID "I KNEW IT I TOLD YOU!" LOL I SAID YEAH GOOD JOB DADDY U DID IT RIGHT, AND HE SAID "I TOLD YOU I DONT FUCK UP THE THIRD TIME, I DID IT ALL RIGHT" LOL WE LAUGHED... HE SAYS HIS TRIP HAS BEEN EXHAUSTING INSTEAD OF BEING VACATION... I DONT BELEIVE A WORD I AM SURE HE IS HAVING A BALL JUST DOESNT WANT TO TELL ME HOW MUCH FUN HE IS HAVING, BUT HE WAS CALLING FROM THE HOTEL SO HE COULDNT TALK FOR LONG SO HE SAID HE WILL CALL ME TOMORROW AROUN 7 TO TELL ME EVERYTHING... :)

Thursday, 31 Jan - Hello everyone... well not much has been happenning... but hopefully by march 1st we move into our new apartment.. i cant wait!!! Angel just started school and he is having exams every friday. He `s concentrating alot n trying really hard. I am really proud of him that he is making a better future for himself n his daughter. Well besides that... it `s all the same... everything is fine, baby is getting bigger and she `s healthy.. we are now trying to find middle names... he came up with Alizeh Kayla. I dont think those 2 names go so well... but i guess that `s what we have so far lol... i cant figure out what middle name i like... i dont like any lol. It `s so hard finding one that rhymes :[ any suggestions??

Sunday, 3 Feb - So we `ve been name searching since i dont like the middle name daddy picked...ALIZEH GABRIELLA MERO(ALIZ-AE) we both like it! :) lets see if we stick to this one lol

Thursday, 7 Feb - Hey ladies so i had my OB apointment today everything seems to be perfect, heard my baby `s heart beat at 148 which is around her usual heart rate. He said all my results from last appointment came back and that everything is perfect. Only problem is i went in weighing 123lbs at 6 weeks n now i `ve only gained 2lbs more. He said he wasnt gunna mind it much cuz i may gain 11lbs within the next 4 weeks so according to my next appointment with him in 4 weeks he will see how my weight is doing... but i have been weighin myself every week. I started out at 120 at 3 weeks when i found out. By 6 weeks i gained 3 lbs. 7 weeks gained 2lbs. 8 weeks lost 1lbs. 9 weeks lost 1lbs. 10 weeks lost 1 lbs. 11 weeks lost 1lbs. 12 weeks gained 1 lbs. 13 weeks gained 1lbs. 14 weeks gained 2 pounds. So now i am at 125lbs... weird i kept loosing weight cuz i havent even had morning sickness, but anywho doctor said not to worry so much about it that i may beo ne of the lucky ones that dont gain so much weight and carry pure baby :D that would be awesome... you see ladies my pregnancy has been perfect! lol I hope i do only gain baby weight n now weight in my body cuz my body so far is still pretty small... i `m all belly for now :D i `m keeping my fingers crossed!!!

Saturday, 16 Feb - Hey ladies!! hope everyone had a good valentines Day! Mine was good.. spent the day with my sperm doner lol... i got a rose teddy bear love letter n lots of loving :D Well ladies the reason for my update is cuz for the past 2 days i `ve been gassy, its weird gassy though cuz it hurt but the gas felt like it was moving sort of hard to explain... but anyway i tried drinking lots of fluid n stuff to make me feel better... well this morning i was laying in bed n i got a gas pain again... then... BAM SHE KICKED ME!! :) for the first time she actually kicked me... i `ve felt her moving around but not much lately.. i guess cuz of the gas... but finally today i felt her first kick it was so beautiful i am not ready to realise this is all real, i am really 16 weeks pregnant n my princess is eager to meet her mommy n daddy :) Gosh i am actually laying in bed, patiently waiting for a second kick, trying to not make movements to see if i feel anything lol now i cant wait till i see her foot or arm sticking out n hitting my ribs :D

Sunday, 17 Feb - SUNDAY 7:26AM ------ SHE JUST KICKED ME 4 TIMES IN A ROW :D WOOHOOO!!!!

Thursday, 21 Feb - Great update everyone. Well Angel and i have found an apartment and we will be moving in together next saturday. We are both so excited! :) Alizeh `s still kicking strong with a strong heart beat. I `ve been experiencing some cramping today which really has been bothering me. I have no bleeding so i decided to wait out till tomorrow if it goes away or if it continues. If the cramps continue i will be calling my doctor tomorow around noon time. Well ladies that `s really my only updates so far. Everything seems to be going well. Angel and i have been doing great. We stil have our differences but he is being very understanding and more supportive than before. I can really see him loving his daughter. He got mad at me a few days ago cuz i told him since we weren `t finding an apartment i wanted to start putting the crib together, he didnt argue with me but he immediately said FINE with a hurt manner... so i apologised and to our luck that same nightwe found an apartment. We are very excited and i cant wait to live with him again, only this time it `s only us and noone else :). Our lives together as a family is finally starting and i hope God can help us and guide us thru our difficulties and differences. He has been doing that alot lately and i am really thankful for that! Well ladies also my belly is growing and i feel alizeh only kick me right bellow my belly button :) i love it! It tickles a little bit! :D

Monday, 10 Mar - Hey ladies sorry i haven `t updated in a while but it `s been a crazy but good week! I finally moved into the new apartment n i am currently stealing internet... i dont think i `ll have my owm till next week but we `ll see... I am so excited to beout of my parents house... they took really good care of me but there were certain things that bothered me alot.. one was not being able to spend the time i wanted with angel. But now all of that has changed i still love my parents to death and am really thankful with them! I am so happy here now, My baby kicks all day now.. n at nights its so hard to get comfortable.. i used to love having angel hold me every night... i had been looking forward to moving out just for that lol... but now i need my space i push angel to his corner lol i dont mean to be mean to him or nothing like that its just that i `ve grown so much its hard to have another big baby on my back lol. As u guys can see i totally forgot my 17 week picture... i was so busy n time flies so quick its amazing!! I `M ALMOST A FULL 5 MONTHS PREGGERS!!! :D

Friday, 14 Mar - Hey ladies... so i have this book that tells me wats happenning with me n my baby day by day... n in the bottom it gives u tips n wat not about pregnancy... well i read one part where it says, `For Your Information: Generally, the baby will be born about 147 days (plus or minus 15 days) from the time the mother first feels that baby move. ` SOoooo, of course i had to do my calculations lol... i felt her first kick Feb 16 at 16 weeks... well 147 days from that is July 12... 15 days b4 that is June 27 and 15 days after July 12 is July 27... so maybe she will come earlier than her due date like i `ve though all along... i just want her to come out after July 22nd lol... that way she can be a Leo like her mommy :D but i guess any of these dates will be fine... although i perfer later in July, i dont want her coming out too early... although thats what i fear!! Does anyone know if this is true?

Sunday, 23 Mar - HELLO EVERYONE... WELL THURSDAY I HAD MY ULTRASOUND APPOINTMENT... EVERYTHING WENT WELL... I WAS TOLD SHE `S DEF A GIRL AND SHE `S 8 INCHES LONG... I ALSO ASKED THE BROAD HOW MUCH MY BABY WAS WEIGHING AND SHE RESPONDED `NOT EVEN A POUND ` I WANTED TO CURSE THE BITCH OUT.. WTF??? THAT WASN `T MY QUESTION.... BUT ANYWAY I HAVE ANOTHER APPOINTMENT ON THE 31ST SO I WILL TALK TO MY DOCTOR AND ASK HIM THEN... MUCH NICER PEOPLE... BUT EXCLUDING THAT CUNT (*PLEASE EXCUSE MY LANGUAGE*) EVERYTHING WENT PERFECT... SHE TOTALLY DID NOT LIKE THAT THING ON MY BELLY CUZ ALL SHE DID WAS KICK IT AND HURT ME CUZ SHE KEPT TRYING TO RUN AWAY FROM IT! SHE WAS AMAZING THOUGH... ALTHOUGH THEY ONLY GAVE ME 4 PICTURES, ANGEL AND I GOT TO EXPERIENCE ALL HER FEATURES SHE DEF HAS MY NOSE, AND HAS HER DADDY `S MOUTH.. I SAID TO ANGEL `BABY SHE `S GOT YOUR LIPS ` AND HE RESPONDS, `HELL YEAH I SEE THAT SHIT IS AMAZING WE `RE BUYING ONE OF THESE MACHINES!! ` LOL HE EVEN SHED A TEAR WH EN TECH SAID `LOOK AT HOW SHE MOVES HER TOUNGE N PLAYS PUTTING HER THUMB IN HER MOUTH ` IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL... SO FAR SHE `S GOT MOMMY `S NOSE, AND MOMMY `S VISCIOUS HABBIT!, YES MY HABBIT.. IN MY WOMB SHE `S GOT A HABBIT ALREADY... I HAVE A MILLION BAD HABBITS.. BUT DURING THE ULTRASOUND WHILE TECH WAS SHOWING US HER FEET... ALIZEH WAS MOVING BOTH HER FAT TOES UP AND DOWN.. BUT ONLY HER TOES... IT WAS AMAZING.. I DO THAT ALL THE TIME, SPECIALLY WHEN I `M MAD OR BORED... LOL THATS WHEN I SAID SORRY BUT SHE DEF IS MAD AND DOES NOT LIKE U PUTTING THAT THING ON MY BELLY... WE ALL LAUGHED.. ANGEL AND I LEFT SKIPPING WITH HUGE SMILES ON OUR FACES FILLED WITH HAPPINESS AND AMAZEMENT. ANGLE IS MORE THAN GLUED TO MY BELLY NOW, I CANNOT BELEIVE IT.. AND THIS LITTLE LADY IS ALREADY SPOILED.. SHE KICKS ME HARD IN MY RIBS NOW, AND WONT STOP UNTIL DADDY PUTS HIS HAND ON MY BELLY, AND THEN SHE KICKS SOFTLY JUST TO GET HIS ATTENTION... SO YEAH HERE COMES DADDY `S LITTLE GIRL :D

Thursday, 27 Mar - Hello everyone well i `m now 21 weeks 6 days along.... Everything has been going great, but lately i `ve been having horrible back pain!! I cannot sleep at night cuz neither my left or right side make me comfortable, n if i lay on my back i feel like my food is gunna come out!! Anyone know anything that may help me sleep better and feel my back better? I `ve been sitting up straight with my legs wide open n feet flat on the floor... but sometimes i cant hold up n i give in n OH THE PAIN!!! I have always been pretty small so being this big is hitting me hard! Also, i think i have been experiencing some sort of contractions, maybe braxton hicks, specially during night time n mornings, and after i eat specially... i get sharp pain on my lower abdomen, but its inside n sometimes i feel pinching pulling pain... should i call my doctor? i am really concerned n dont want to find out too late that this is bad... also, could this be pretern dialation? i `ve been feeling these for about a week straight now... its not constant, sometimes they are but most likely no, n they hurt alot where i have to lay down n drink water... n my back hurting is no help : `(

Tuesday, 1 Apr - Hey ladies... well i just wanna update on my last message... I did go see my doctor that thursday but no doctors were there only the nurse practicioner. She `s a total imbecil!!! Her response to my pain was that my ligaments were stretching and baby is growing.... which sounds correct... so i asked her what i can do to comfort myself... her response was to do Yoga! WTF??? so i go from my doctor telling me to take it easy not to be on my feet so much and to have rest, to, DO YOGA! i left so mad.. after that she sounded so out of it like she had no idea what she was talking about. I told her but my doctor keeps telling me to take it easy... and she said yeah but u `re past 12 weeks so there is no longer any danger for u. I was like what? There is danger at all times! N she tried giving me this ridiculous explanation about. So i left their office so mad!! OH and when i left i had to wait for angel to come pick me up for about 40 mins in the lobby cuz he was at school. Well during my wait, i was in the lobby in so much pain cryingso i went back inside the office and asked if they had any tylenol or any sort of pain killers... her response `this is not a pharmacy we dont give out medicine ` i swear i wanted to jump over the counter n slap the whore! Anyway, i went back on Monday for regular 4 week check-up. Everything turned out fine... i asked my doctor about yoga he said NO WAY! to keep taking it easy that IF I FEEL energenetic and up to it i can try it... but not necessary... just to stretch my legs in bed everyday. So i will be doing that. Doctor said everything is great and i have only gained 16 pounds so far... Alizeh was weighing 15 oz and measured 8 inches in our last sono at 20 weeks 6 days.... wonder how much bigger she is now! I am now 22 weeks 4 days along and i am feeling a little better. I keep getting the pain at nights but angel takes care of me and makes me comfortable :) ON A BRIGHTER NOTE!: Angel has become so glued to my belly! He has been behaving alot better n hopefully he keeps it up. He is so excited about our coming baby girl, but he says after this no more girls... one is plenty! lol Alizeh is kicking stronger each day n moving around sometimes making me jump cuz she tickes my belly button lol... well i `m posting up pix of angel n i n belly... hope u guys like!

Sunday, 20 Apr - Hello everyone, i know it's been quiet a while since i've updated but so much has happened and i havent had the time to update... First of all, Alizeh is doing great! She's a very active baby so she makes me ache a lot... but i dont mind, it's all worth it... eventhough i want her out already lol i know it's not time and i just want time to go by faster!!! Well about 2 or 3 weekends ago, i was at my parents house. I went to the bathroom and when i whiped i was bleeding. I got so scared and i called my doctor immediately... ****it was not alot of blood, more like spotting**** but regardless i freaked out! Well, doc asked me to go to the hospital i was planning on delivering.. i was scared when she said that n then i asked her ok so i go to emergency room? and she said no go to labor and delivery... Gosh i freaked out so much and got so scared... i went to the bathroom again, and i was still bleeding... i was so scared!!! Well i went and i went where i was told... they strapped me up with the contraccion monitor and heartbeat monitor. Alizeh was moving so much!! her heart rate was so high up!!! doctor scared the shit out of me and said she wanted an ultrasound asap and check me if i've dialated... she said she feared that maybe the baby was stuck somewhere or her umbilical cord could be strapped around her neck which is causing her to move so much and her heart rate so high... OMG i was so scared i cried so much. I was there by myself with noone and i wanted to die i could not beleive this was happenning... well about 30 or 40 mins later angel arrived since he was at a friends house, he had to get a ride from someone else cuz i had his car. Well he got there and he wanted to touch my belly... he asked me how everything was, what was going on. Doctor told him not to touch my belly since we didnt know why she was so alterated that she could make a wrong move and things could go wrong so she wanted to keep things safe until we knew why she was moving so much... well doc was in the room with us for about 20 mins... Alizeh kept moving and kicking and hurting me.. at this point i was in pain, i literally felt my legs numbing up and like my vagina area (lol) was feeling hot! I dont know if my mind was making this shit up but i was in pain!!! i felt myself spreading my back was hurting and the bottom of my belly hurt so much cuz baby was constantly kicking it hard. Well after 20 mins doc left and angel held my hands and told me everything was going to be ok.. mind u during those 20 mins angel did not say a word, he was just looking at the contraccion monitor. After he held my hands i started crying to him that i was scared that i did something wrong and caused this for her that i wanted her to be safe and he said it's going to be ok dont worry dont be scared our baby is ok i promise you and put his hand on my belly. My immediate reaction was get off.. since doc said not to hold my belly. But he felt her kicking so hard and he said oh my poor baby and kissed my belly.. NO JOKE IMMEDIATELY SHE STOPPED KICKING!! she kept moving but now it was just soft and gentle. Angel got scared looked at the monitor and saw the heart rate was lowering, so i called the nurses and my doctor. They decided to check me if i was dialted. Doc said i was 1cm dialated and 40% effaced. I asked if that was normal or was bad and she said she didnt know yet and sent me immediately for an ultrasound.. but by this time alizeh's heart beat was at 154bpm, which is her normal heart rate. I had my sono and doc said to angel "congratulations daddy, you're gunna be a good dad, she loves you already!" HE CRIED! lol my baby started crying he could not beleive that she really stopped after his touch and kiss. He kissed me and my belly and started talking to her about how spoiled she is gunna be but not to take advantage of him cuz he wont be able to say no to her lol Later about 12 hours later lol doctors told me there were no signs of contractions and bleeding stopped so i was being sent home... she said that it's not normal for me to be dialated at 1cm but that i shouldnt worry cuz i can still deliver late even though i'm already started to dialte. lol so we went home and i've been fine since. Now again on wednesday i started having pain that went from my back to my belly. My stomach got hard and only way to make it go away was to breathe hard and bend down. I was in the park with angel and my nephew & neice and i had this pain 3 times in a row.. lasted less than 30 seconds about 10 mins apart. but it went awayi after that third time. So i ignored it. Thinking oh they are probably braxton hicks. Well thursday morning again i felt the same pain, but only once. Then all day i had been discharging more than usual. So i called my doctor just to make sure that everything was normal. I did not want to go in, i just wanted to know what i could do to minimize the pain if i got it again and if there is anything i can do to simply make everything normal if the discharge wasnt normal. Well they asked me to go after i told them about the contraction like feelings i was having since i had already started dialating. Well again they sent me to labor and delivery at the hospital which was a total waste of time! They checked to see if my water had broke, and duh i think i would know if it broke.... i was just discharging a little more than usual that's all... well they monitored me for contractions which was also a waste cuz i did not have any pain or contraction like feeling. Monitored baby and everything was perfect. Well i was there for about 2-3 hours and it was a total waste! There was nothing wrong with me, which i already knew and was told that i'm still at 1 that everything was fine and water had not broken... DUH! lol well my response to my questions were simply "it's normal" so why the fuck was i wasked to go to labor and delivery then if it's fucking normal??? they said i was still early to be having braxton hicks so i was probably just feeling movements... BITCH I KNOW WHAT MY BABY'S MOVEMENTS FEEL LIKE, EVEN WHEN THEY HURT... pathetic bitch! i really did not like the lady i saw there as u can tell lol. Well since then everything has been good. I've still been having those contraction like pains but only once a day maybe twice but thats it. The discharge is also still the same so maybe its just a normal increise of discharge due to the pregnancy and nothing to worry about. And laying down or bending down def gets rid of the pain! :) and the pain doesnt last more than 15 seconds anymore. So it's much better and i can now start getting used to the pain little by little for my big big day :) Well ladies my back is killing me now from sitting and typing, so i will contine more updates as days go by.. for now i am happy to day everything is great. Angel and I are doing pretty good, and our princess is preogressing properly :) my next appointment is on the 2nd for my glucose? i think it's called... to be checked for gestional diabetis. Which i have a feeling i will come out possitive.. cuz i love sweets!! :/