27-6-2009 - update on me

My mood while writing this blog: happy

I am due for my period this up coming month between the dates of July 4th. to July 7th. that is marked on a 28 day cycle......my period last month was a bit weird cause I started brown spotting on the 6th. after an exercise that i was doing then that went on everyday until the 9th when I started to bleed bright red and that stayed steady like a period would do for 7 days....about 3 to 5 days later I got bad cramps on both sides of my lower abdomen area maybe I ovulated I dont know....

I am not sure though that I want to be pregnant because I would like to have a little break with the baby days and nights ya know I mean I love them to death, but I would like for my kiddos to walk and talk before I went and had another one, but then another part of me wants to try for that little baby girl that my husband and I are wanting so badly what to do.........

I am so mixed feeling about all of this ya know having another baby right now has it's pros and cons if you really think about it......and that I do.....

My husband said that we will take what comes along our way and when I get pregnant then we will both know that it will be our last baby....weather it is a baby boy or girl and I agree with him' but I am scared we wont get that baby girl that we want and it will just crush me to death....even though I love my boys with every inch of my heart......