28-11-2008 - Very Sad

My mood while writing this blog: Sad

So ladies, here is the update. I went this morning to Emerg. only to fing out that the gestational sac. is too small for the weeks i am preg. i was told by the doc. that if i don't start bleeding in a few days to get my family doc. to do hcg level and ultra sound in a weeks time. My hcg is 9000, which i think is great, but what do i know?My boobs still hurt a bit, but why is the sac so small? I don't know. so the report is "this may be a nonviable gestation" great news eh?

That is not all girls, I came home from the hospital and my hamster is stiff like a piece of board., that's right, he died when i was not there, so my baby is dead and the one in my tummy stopped growing. I am so hurt for my little hammy, i know he was sick, but he was my child. Why did God make me childless? i don't know.Everytihing is going wrong and spinning out of control. Why did god take my little baby from me? My hammy always comforted me when I m/c or so. Pls God, let his little soul rest in peace.