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06-8-2008 - The end to my freedom

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

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I'm not sure how many of you ladies out there are going through the same thing I am... but there is about to be a big change in my life. I am officially going back to work in 5 days after almost 4 months of bed-rest during my pregnancy and 3 months of maternity leave. I resigned my position as a kindergarten teacher for a public school district b/c my school is 30+ miles away from my home and gas prices and time communting were killing me. I am now going to be the pre-kindergarten teacher at a private child-care center (the same one my daughter and Thomas will go to). There are drawbacks to this new job (more hours, less days off, etc) but the positives are that it is 5 min. from my house and I will be there with my 2 children.... I just HATE the idea of someone else caring for my baby. I feel like Thomas is only going to be a baby for so long and that I will miss out on all these precious moments with him. We just unfortunately can't afford to have me stay at home with the kids...so I guess it is my duty to suck it up and go to work. It's just going to be a big change...instead of being at home all day caring for my kids and my home... I'll be at work and caring for others' children. Logistically, I don't know how it will all work out (getting 2 kids ready in the morning, finding time to clean and cook, when and will I get any free time, etc)... Ahh... I don't know I just don't do change very well...so wish me luck, especially since I'll probably be going through 'freedom' withdrawl :(

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5 Comments on The end to my freedom


summerisis - Sunday, 10 Aug
I started working again this week. I thought it would be more difficult than it is but that's probably because Hubby is home with Sierra. I love my work (so far) and am happy to be thinking in a professional environment. But I dread the days that Hubby goes back to work and Sierra is cared for by strangers. So, yes, I'm at least kinda going through what you're 9:30 p.m. and I don't put Sierra down... I hold her and can't let go. Jeni and Sierra

Binkybobo - Thursday, 7 Aug
Where will you be working? Send me a pm. I have been thinking about messaging you but I have just been so busy! How have u been?

poprocksncoke - Thursday, 7 Aug
Hey girl.. you know I am going through the same thing. Its not easy.. and I often feel like just crying and throwing a fit about it. But I think I am coming to realize that is JUST the way our life has to go now. I dont want to work.. I dont want to send Madeline to my mom's or sil house all day..but I have tried to think about how I am supporting her and being there for her by earning money to buy her formula, and diapers and clothes..etc... you know? There is sooooo much negative feelings we have about going back to work. I cried for 2 weeks before I had to go back... And there is just nothing I can do about it.. so I have to focus on what positive I can make out of it. You know if you need to talk, I am here :)
Just think when you get to spend time with Thomas and Giselle, how much more you will like it because it makes it more special in a way.. even when they are crabby.. you can tolerate it more because you just miss being around them period. :) *hugs*

momma2bin08 - Thursday, 7 Aug
You will do ok I guess just one foot infront of the other and one day at a time is all you can do.

kelly-roo - Wednesday, 6 Aug
many prayers towards you!
you will do fine!