29-5-2009 - Very undrunken Friday night!

My mood while writing this blog: Sober

Well It's Friday night & what a gorgeous night it has been, we are having some kind of mini heatwave in the UK & I have been sitting in a pub garden nursing my one drink of the week (bottle of Corona) & then it suddenly hit me, the Summer is my most favourite drinking time of the year & I am going to be sober for it all!!! For me appreciating the sun is sitting in a restaurant by the River Thames drinking wonderful wine & eating lovely food, chatting with my friends & ending up pretty drunk but this year I'll have to sit there with my J20 & just want to drink a glass of merlot & smoke a cigarette - bad times!

So I'm sitting on the bench in the pub garden & I look round @ most of the people I'm with & every single person is merry & well on their way to getting smashed & I realised that I was jealous of them, It has taken me months to feel like that - I probably sound like a right alcoholic but I used to like going out @ the weekend to unwind after a hard week at work & just had fun & didn't put myself @ risk! Now I get knackered by 10pm & find myself at home in bed by 10.30 ( I am sitting in bed in my dressing gown as I type)

Has anyone else felt like this? I love my baby & can't wait till she's here but for one night I just wish I was back to my old self & able to last a night of drinking & partying!