15-7-2009 - Happy but feeling a bit like an old woman

My mood while writing this blog: Slightly lonely

Ola everyone,

31 weeks yay!

Yes I know I am on holiday & should be out having fun & not thinking bout the damn internet but I happen to be in Magaluf (Spain) & it is party central here & I just can't get into the spirit of things. For a start, people here don't go out till nearly midnight but by that time I am absolutely shattered & just want to go to my bed, it is 11.30pm here & everyone is all dressed up & on their way out to the numerous bars & clubs to get wasted on cheap alcohol & meet up with guys ( really makes me wish I wasn't preggo) don't get me wrong I can't wait for my little girl to be here but it has left me feeling a bit isolated & beginning to think coming here wasn't the best idea.

It is very beautiful here but it is so hot & that doesn't help either & also I worry about having too much sun on my bump so am brown everywhere apart from my stomach & also I keep thinking people must be thinking that I am going out drinking & partying whilst heavily pregnant which just isn't true, I went out last night & ended up coming back to the hotel just after 1pm as I was so tired & was so not having a good time & am also a bit worried bout my bump incase someone gets pissed & falls into me (it does happen trust me, I saw some guy flatten a girl last night after falling over his chair)

I also feel real lonely to be honest & I am not an attention seeking kind of girl & never have been but I miss my Mum (yes I know I am 27 years of age) & I also miss babys father (even though I wouldn't tell him that)

Anyway enough of me whinging, hope everyone is okay & that ur bumps r all growing like they should.