02-8-2009 - Psycho ex

My mood while writing this blog: Really pissed off & disappointed!

Hi all

Sorry to be blogging again so soon but am really upset & I am raging with anger today - After such a lovely day yesterday I woke up this morning to my sister telling me that my ex-boyfriend of 10years had a go @ her in the pub last nite for no reason, she walked in & asked him how he was & gave him a kiss & apparently he was really funny with her & said "Oh I suppose u have been to her baby shower then" & of course my sister said that she had & he started saying little bitchy things about me infront of her & she confronted him & they ended up outside talking & then she said that he just switched & started screaming in her face that everything was my fault because I was the one that ended things & that I have made him the way he is - He is addicted to cocaine & is deluded & paranoid & this was a big part of why I split up with him in the 1st place, he never used to be like this & I think thats what upset me about all of this as my sister & him were really good friends -

I can understand he is a bit upset/angry because I am pregnant & it's not his child (we have been split up for about a year & a half) but it's getting beyond a joke now & he told my sister that my family were a bunch of 'c*n*s (yes that was really the word he used) my family have helped him out more than his own family ever have, my Mum & stepdad have treated him like their own son, even after we split up they would still ring him & invite him round & lend him money (to pay off his coke habit) I can't believe that he would throw it all back in their faces like this. I rung him after I had spoken to my sister this morning & I was so upset & angry that I couldn't get my words out & just burst into uncontrollable tears (thats what I do when I get angry, I just can't keep it in) & he is denying that he did a lot of it but I honestly think he was so out of it that he can't remember - anyway had to hang up on him!

I can't believe this all came after such a lovely day, I'm so upset with him cos whatever happened we had spent 10years together & still love each other, even if we r not in love anymore I always thought we would be friends but he is out of control & I don't want to see him ever again!