28-6-2008 - Rachel R.I.P my sweet baby girl...

My mood while writing this blog: saddened

Today marks the 5 year anniversary of the birth of our daughter Rachel that had passed away. Very emotional day as we went to have the wonderful news if it was a girl or boy on our first ultrasound at week 20. As The tech started he discovered she had died. Of course he was not allowed to tell us anything. He said he would be right back. We sat there wondering where he went after 5 , 10, 15 minutes went by. He came back and said your doctor wants to see you in a hour. We said huh? Whats wrong? He said I am not allowed to tell you. That was the longest hour of our life! When we went to the doctors office the nurse came out crying saying I am so sorry. We knew then she was gone. I couldn't believe the doctor. He had to do another ultrasound to show me- to prove to me. We were instructed to go to the hospital in 2 hours. I was to be induced. It was a 28 hour process where I laid in a bed and cried. I was hooked up to morphine so that I did not have to feel it...yeah right...pain is pain with or without medications. Labor doesn't know if it is full term or not. Labor was just as intense. We gave birth to Rachel. I was married the following month July 25. That was the hardest month to plan a wedding that was already in motion. I could have canceled it but I felt that was not going to change the fact that she was gone. As the years have went by it has became easier. We both have called Erin, Rachel several times. The kids have caught us. We miss her. She would be 4 and a 1/2 now. The angels are caring for her now. We will see her again in heaven.