01-7-2008 - 1st July 2008

My mood while writing this blog: crappy

Men are Shit

for the last two years Andrew hasn't worked, claimed social or anything, so all we've had to rely on is my wage to keep a house and 3 people going. well in March he finally started working for a local shop. He never really liked the job but at least it was bringing in some money each week. not a lot but just enough to tide us over. well anyway, i knew he wanted to hand his notice in, once he got another job which is fine. well come Saturday he walked out so now i am back to struggling on my one wage. Also i claim family working tax credits which help out a lot but his now ex-employers have not given him his P60 so we didn't know what his total earnings up until April were. so i can't fill out my forms properly. and that is pissing me off so much as because he never worked last year, his total earnings were just what he earned in March so really i should be able to claim more on the tax credits this year because of that. also he never got actual printed wage slips with all his contributions on them, he just got his envelope each week with his cash inside with his gross pay for that week wrote on it and everytime Andrew has asked for the forms to be filled in he has been fobbed off. i now have until the end of this month to sort it all out otherwise my money will be stopped and i'll be even more screwed than i am already.

oh and another thing. he had people round the house on saturday which he did warn me about. i was actually out that day with my friend and her little boy and my lucy and i got home about 6ish to find every single seat in my living room taken up, so i sat upstairs in my room all evening and night. and then on sunday i was feeling a little bit rough but i had a barbecue to go to for my cousin's birthday. so i showed my face there for a couple of hours and took lucy with me. i got home, and was sat there thinking about what to have for tea and my cousin (who is one of Andrews friends) called round and ended up having his tea with us. so i ended up going bed early. and THEN i come home from work on monday after having picked Lucy up after work, buying her new school shoes and getting in the family food shop and walking home with it i get in the house and people were fucking sat there again. so i ended up sat in my room again all evening and night on my own again. Andrew kept coming up the stairs and saying are you in a mood (which totally pisses me off when he does that - because he knows i am) so Anyway Andrew says to me "its not like i have them round all the time anyway" (except it's now the third day on the run). he then tries to please me a bit by saying "oh i'll take Lucy to school in the morning" (lucy doesn't go to a local school and it takes 40 minutes on a bus to get there and then i have to get a bus back home so i can get to work as i only live round the corner from my work) so i says yeah that would be good if you took her cos then i get to have an extra 1 1/2 hours in bed before work. Well this morning the alarm goes off and i wake Andrew up, Lucy gets up and dressed and comes into our room and i say to her Go and get your packed lunch box out of your bag and put it in the kitchen. and Andrew goes did you not do it last night (i never do it the night before) so i said NO. so he goes can you do it it will only take you two minutes, so i said well it will only take you two minutes yourself. So up he gets in a mood and goes OH your back to your true colours now your pregnant aren't you.

SO i hear him downstairs making her school dinner and he's only given her cheese sandwitches - which she doesn't even like so now she wont eat her dinner at school.

i'm so pissed off i can't even be bothered today, i'm sat in work hardly talking to anyone cos i'm just not in the mood. AHHHH vent over now.