19-2-2009 - dad not coping

My mood while writing this blog: stressy

Well as you know i went back to work in the middle of January due to money situation. i'm the only one that works so it was decided that Andrew would mind the kids whilst i'm at work. i am doing full time until March and then i;m going part time doing 3 days a week.

well yesterday i'm in work and i get a phone call from Andrew, telling me i have to come home as John is screaming and he can't cope. This is the second time he's rang me at work to tell me to come home and each time i have dropped everything and gone home.

so i got home about 2.40pm and Andrew went out "just" for 10 minutes. he came back at 5.30pm and then told me he was just going to his mates for an hour for a break, so during this time when he was out. i've ended up washing all the pots, putting a washing load on, then hanging it out, feeding lucy her dinner at 3pm as she hadn't had any, feeding the baby, getting him off to sleep, and doing basic housework.

Everyone is always telling me how well Andrew is coping and how he's doing a good job but i feel like screaming at them that all he does is sit at home, he doesn't wash the pots, tidy up, do the clothes washing. i'm the one who gets up at 7am to do John's first bottle and get him dressed and ready to go out, i get Lucy up and ready for school. i then leave to go to work, i then come home and do lucy's tea and John's 7pm and 11pm bottle, as soon as i get in Andrew goes to his mates for an hour for a break.

i know i'm probably being a bit petty about this but i don't feel well and i've had enough, specially as i always said i never wanted to return to work at least not until my maternity was up (which is in July) and i'm kinda resenting the fact that Andrew doesn't work and it's solely up to me to bring the money home. i don't want to be the man i want to be at home with my kids.

ok enough of my ranting. tomorrow will be a better day

xx