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30-4-2008 - well....

My mood while writing this blog: stressed

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so today was a ok day at work...normal actually...until about lunch...i noticed that my shins were starting to hurt when i walked...the more i walked the more they hurt... so i tried to put my feet up whenever i could....then the 100$ my so called "helping" husband was suppose to have available for me wasn't in his account so that made me mad... i also tried changing my name on deers and correcting my birthdate...need a power of attorney to do that.... and to top off the day on the way home coming to a stop ata light my car decided to just shut off..... uggggghhhhh. so being almost 7 months prego i cried of course bc all of the days events just cracked me. So the rest of the way home i started having BH like 15 min apart...no good. finally home i came tot he conclusion that i've had enough.... 2 months of driving to work almost 2 hours and home 2 hours 5 days a week. working 50 hrs and spending 400$ in gas a month.... and now i'm retaining water and having BH on a regular basis...it's just not worth it anymore. I figured i could basically beg my grandma for some money to hold me over for may...of course paying her back... so i could put in my 2 weeks at my office so i wouldn't have to drive anymore, try to find something up here...or if not take early maternity leave. I am so stressed and aggrevated i can't take it anymore. I plan on calling hubbys commander tomorrow, going to legal aid next wednesday and getting that ball rolling bc i've had enough of his mind games. he's had ample opportunity to step up and do the right thing and i just can't do this to myself or Evan anymore...it's too much. Am i wrong for thinking this way? I mean i'm not even 30 weeks and 1 cm dilated. i can't and won't let myself go into labor early. It it depresses me that all i can do is stare at the baby stuff i want and can't buy it... i can't even afford birthing classes.... sorry for the rant it's just i'm at a breaking point and i can't go on like this... i'm tired of waking up a 5:30 am leaving the house at 5:45 am and not getting home until almost 8pm. so i'm gonna go do what i have to do and screw him if he wants to get mad.... there i'm better

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1 Comments on well....


clairek - Thursday, 1 May
hey there hunnie, i really think it will be good if u give up the traveling if u can cause u need to take it easy, hope u r ok,xx,